The Journal Of Sara Revol

Entry 6

Slowly my memories have been coming back in my dreams. I think they are my memories. I mean I see birthdays and parties and other little stuff I just don't know what they are. I am convinced I am seeing what a child would. I keep trying to talk to Johnny and Shelby about it but they are almost never around. Wedding planning is becoming a real pain in my ass.

E.J. though still has been visiting me almost everyday. He has started sending me flowers when he isn't visiting. I think it's him at least. He's amazing I am starting to believe he loves me. It's one thing to think and another to believe a small fact like that. I haven't believed it because I didn't know if he was trustworthy yet. I think he is now.

"Sara? How ya doing," he asks concerned. He was wearing a tight white tee with the recent Panic! At The Disco album on it. I know that because I recognized the guy from when he showed me a few of their songs. They are pretty good.

"I'm good. Thanks for the flowers... I noticed you send them when you aren't here to visit... that's really sweet..." I'm very thankful to have him in many different ways.

He stares at me confused. I pretend not to notice so then I can admire the daffodils he sent me. He continues to stare and finally mutters the words, " I can't be around daffodils; I go into anafilactic shock."

I look puzzled. How did he send the flowers if he's so allergic? If he didn't send them who did? He rushed over and I handed him the note that came with the flowers. He started reading the note.

The note read:

Dear Sara,

I'm sorry I haven't come to visit. Just wanted you to know; I miss you. I love you.

~Secret Admirer

"Who the hell is this?!" E.J. asked angrily.

"I don't know!" I screamed.

We sat there for a long while and talked. I kept trying to figure out what we were gonna do. We came to a conclusion and eventually E.J. had to find him. A few days later they came to visit me.

His name was Nathan. He was very attractive. He had dark skin, not black, kinda a hispanic caramel color. He had bright green eyes like a prairie in spring. His hair was soft and sleek. He was a dirty blonde. I still thought E.J. was hotter.

Anyway he has had a thing for me for a long time. I really shouldn't say thing, more of an obsession. It's kinda creepy. He is very strange. The first thing he does when he walks towards me is take my hand and kiss it.

"Sara! By God; you look terrible! I hate to see the love of my life like this," He exclaimed.

I rolled my eyes,"Hey Nathan. Thanks for the flowers but they aren't necessary. "

This awkward small obsession went on for 3 hours. I think it's a good time to tell him that he is crazy. Instead I said goodbye and finished my terrible green jello.

E.J. said,"Are you okay?"

"That was the longest six hours of my life."

"It was only three."

"Fuck! E.J. I am disgusted by him. I swear that once he stole a clip of my hair! He's creepy!"

I then went to bed and was done with people.