When I Text You, It Means I Miss You

Please Answer

Patrick

Patrick 

Please answer

It's been 2 days and I haven't heard anything from you

I'm sorry

I'm so sorry

I didn't mean any of it

I promise

You are beautiful

And amazing

and sweet

and incredibly talented

None of what I said is true

Patrick please

It's been 4 days

My days suck when I can't talk to you

I can't sleep

I can barely eat

I don't know what to do

The guilt is killing me

Please just say something

Anything

I don't even care if it's you never want to see me

I just need to know you're okay

I'm sorry

I'm so fucking sorry Patrick

I never wanted to hurt. God that's the last thing I wanted to do

But I did and I'll never be able to forget that

Patrick please

It's been a week

I've been driving around Chicago hoping to catch a glimpse of you

And I haven't

I'm so fucking worried

My friends are scared

I haven't slept in 3 days

I can't remember the last time I ate

I've been calling into work sick cause I can barely leave my apartment

My thoughts are consumed by you

The dark thoughts are coming back

Patrick I'm really fucking worried

I don't even know if you're alive at this point

Please just answer Patrick

I've even tried calling you

No answer

God I wish I could tell you what happened. Why I said those things

But I'm so scared of what will happen 

Why did you do it?