When I Text You, It Means I Miss You

Not Your Fault

Hey guys! So I'm really gonna try and update more but college can be crazy but I'm gonna try my hardest. Also OH MY GOD I HIT 1 K!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! I CANT EVEN BELIEVE THIS!!!! THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!! I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!

Oh.Pete.I'm so sorry. I had no idea. I..I can't even imagine how hard that must be.

That's it?

What do you mean? 

You're not gonna tell me I'm a freak or say you never wanna talk to me or anything?

Pete. No. Of course not

That's what usually happens

Why? It's a mental disorder. It's not your fault. You can't control it. 

Really?

Yes of course. Didn't you already know that?

I've been told all my life it was my fault. By everyone. Well except my therapist but I just figured that's what therapists say. 

Pete. This is not your fault. I promise you that. Mental disorders are real and hard to control. People shouldn't blame you for your actions. Which is why.....I forgive you.

Wait what?!?!?!

I forgive you

You...you...do?

Yes. You couldn't control it. And I know now, you don't mean it

Patrick. Thank you so much. You have no idea how much this means to me

Anything for you, Pete :)

Back to flirting now? 

Yeah I kinda missed it

Me too :)

So can I ask you something?

Yeah of course

Are you on any meds?

I was....but I kinda stopped taking them

How come?

I thought....welll...I thought I was getting better. Evidently not

Are you gonna go back on them?

I don't know

Why not?

I just really don't like how they make me feel. They make me feel not like myself

But if they help control your mood swings, you should take them

I just want to help you

I know, Patrick. And I appreciate it. I'll start taking my meds again

Well...why don't you talk to your therapist and maybe try  different medication

That's a good idea. Thanks Patrick :)

Of course. Anytime

And also, thank you for understanding and forgiving me. I really am sorry for what I said

It's okay Pete. I know it wasn't your fault

So....are we okay now?

We're perfect :)

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But not as perfect as you