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I Just Can't

Hey guys!! I have been busy but I'm back! Enjoy you're update!!!

Patrick!!! Oh my god!! Are you okay?!?!?! I've been worried sick!!

Why did you do it?

Patrick are you okay?? You haven't talked to me in over a week!! I thought you were dead!

Why.Did.You.Do.It.

Patrick c'mon. Talk to me. I have been freaking out! 

Answer the question.

Patrick can we please talk about this later? I need to know if you're okay?

Just answer the question

Please. I need to know you're okay and everything is fine. Well i know everything isn't fine but I have been so scared. I haven't slept. I've barely left my apartment. I've lost so much weight. Please just tell me you're okay.

Goddamnit Pete! ANSWER THE FUCKING QUESTION!!

Patrick...I...you never swear

That's because I'm fucking pissed!!

I....I...don't know what to say

Answer the question

I can't do that

Why not?

I...I just can't 

Pete. Answer the question

I can't.

Then that means you meant it

No no no no no. Patrick, I didn't mean any of what I said. I promise

Then tell me why you said it

I can't do that

WHY THE FUCK NOT?!?!?!

I just can't. I'm sorry

why can't you tell me?!?!!? I don't understand!! I told you about my boyfriend and my problems with my thoughts and self-esteem! Why can't you tell me why you said those horrible things?!?!

I just...I can't....I can't tell you. 

If you don't tell me....We're done

Patrick...what do you mean?

I mean..we'll be done. We won't talk anymore. We won't be friends anymore. I'll cut you out of my life. Forever.

No.....you...you..can't do that

I can and I will

But...but..why

Because I need an answer

But you can't threaten to just stop contact with me. I...I..need you..you are one of the most important people in my life and I can't lose you too

Then just tell me and you won't lose me

I can't

Why not?

I just can't

Pete. I need a real reason

.......I'm scared

Why?

Because if I tell you......I will lose you and I can't let that happen

Pete. If you tell me, I promise you won't lose me. But if you don't, you will

I'm just......I'm really scared...

How come? You can trust me

I've had bad experiences before

Well....I'm different. You can trust me. I promise

Okay.....I trust you

Now, I'm gonna ask you one more time. Why did you say those things?

Because I'm bipolar