Cotton Candy Kisses

Oh Boy

I wake up once with the room spinning and a warm body next to me, and I immediately shut my eyes for the room to stop. I wake up again and this time I almost vomit all of the alcohol consumed last night so I immediately fall back to sleep. It isn't until the third time that I finally wake up a bit better. I look around me and see that I'm in Jakes room. His curtains fully closed so the sun isn't shining through, I need to thank him for that. I see a bottle of water on the night stand besides the bed and pick it up drinking almost half of the water.

"Well well well look who decided to finally get up" Jake says while walking into the room with a apple in his hand.

"Tell me again why I'm in your room?" My voice coming out a bit more raspy than usually due to my dry mouth.

"You fell asleep in the car and I had to carry you in the house but right when I was putting you down on the bed you told me you couldn't sleep alone that you'd feel better in here.." his voice trails off like there's more to the story but I don't push him. I never do because I know I tend to say things that I regret, I'm just going to try not to remember it. "That Harry fellow was quiet the character"

"Wait what? Harry?" And then the realization hits me Harry is green eyes and he pulled me to the side of the house and his breath was warm against my skin and he was holding my face and he was-

"Yeah that guy that took you home that one day. He was pretty chill aside from just hoping in the car" Jake shakes his head at the memory while a laugh falls from his lips. I need air.

"Hey can you please do me a favor please?" I ask with the best puppy face I can make at 3 in the afternoon with a head ache.

"What?" He tilts his head to the side curious. Until his head starts to shake. "No no no I can't not today. I promised Joshua that we go-"

"Really so Josh is more important than me your own sister?" I question throwing the covers off of me but immediately regretting it seconds later when I feel the goosebumps rise from my legs.

"No he isn't but Ali come on give me some slack I promise I'll make them for you when I get home okay?" He face softens and he knows I can't argue with him so I simply nod my head. "I promise" he heads to the the closet and throws on a blue sweater. "I'll call you when I'm coming back okay?"

"Okay be careful" he smiles at me before turning away and leaving. I hear the down stairs door slam shut and I know he left.

I wasn't asking him for a lot just for him to make me breakfast, lunch and dinner. With some dessert. Jake has always been the cook while I on the other hand tend to burn anything that I put on a pan.

A sigh leaves my lips while I get up and take the fastest shower of all time. I don't want to feel the warm water I don't want to wash my hair or even brush my teeth. The laziness is real, but I do it all anyway. I put on black legging and a white t-shirt with one of Jakes green jackets. I put on convers and walk down stairs with much much dismay. The bed calling my name with every step I take but I gotta eat. My dad sits in the same position as I reach the bottom step.

"Hey daddy" I say. I walk towards him but he only turns his body the opposite way.

"Good afternoon Alice" his voice almost makes me want to slap him and say please dad please pay attention to me I'm your daughter for goodness sake but I bite my tongue. I always do.

"I um I'm going to get breakfast do you want anything?" My voice is almost pleading for him to carry a conversation with me. He only shakes his head. "Um da-"

"I'm sorry I need to go" and with that he leaves me standing in the kitchen while he walks upstairs and slams the door shut. I feel them I do I feel the wetness sink into my cheeks I feel the flow down my cheeks I see the blurriness of the tears. I feel the lump that forms in my throat but I swallow it and wipe the tears away. It shouldn't bother me anymore it really shouldn't but how can it not he's my dad. I thought since we lost our mom we would be closer if possible but no something switched in him.