Cotton Candy Kisses

What?

He kissed me. His lips touched mine. His soft lips. Oh God they tasted like the blue jolly rancher. They're so soft and the way he pulled my waist like he wanted me close. This is wrong I shouldn't be think about this again. But it's hard not to.

It's Friday now and ever since Monday after school in the libary when his lips touched mine it's been on repeat. He's tried to bring it up but I always awkwardly avoid the subject. My body is literally drawn to him though. I tend to look for him even when I don't want to. We do talk a lot and joke around. It isn't until I start thinking that I make things a tab werid.

"Ali are you ready?" Jake yells from down stairs. I roll my eyes at him even if he can't see me.

"Almost!" I yell back. We're going to a bond fire today.  It's only nine, he's so impatient all the time. A knock on the door makes me drop my shorts on the floor as I get startled.

"Hold o-" the door swings open and I look up with terrified eyes. Harry stands at the door way. His eyes widen and his face turns completely red. As I'm only wearing a pastel pink two piece. His eyes try to stay on my face but he fails miserably, his eyes scanning my body. I clear my throat and find a blanket to throw over my body. He closes his eyes for a second probably thinking.

"I um I so-sorry," he tries to lean against the door frame but ends up slipping and smacking his head against the door frame. I giggle at his clumsiness. I walk up to him and gently push him back a little.

"I'll be down soon" I say as I slowly start shutting the door.

"Yeah I uh Jake wanted me to get you and I should of waited to come in but I- you I'm sorry" he says quickly, rambling.

"Its fine" I say as I give him a little smile and he gives me a smirk. I shut the door softly and lean against the door my forehead resting on the cold wood. I don't hear his footsteps walk away and I smile more. "You don't have to wait for me, I'll be okay" I say.

"Oh yeah I yeah I'll be down there" I hear him lose his footing as he stumbles probably. His footsteps fade off as he walks down stairs.

I turn away from the door and put on high waisted blue shorts. I put on a knitted white crop top. My white convers. I look in the mirror and see my messy curls and decide to just let them be. I grab my phone and wallet. As I'm about to walk out the door I realize I might get cold later so I grad a blue sweater that's slightly long. I run down the stairs smiling.

"I'm done" I state as I see Joshua, Jake, and Harry on the couch. Joshua gives me a big smile, teeth showing and everything. While Harry blushes further and tries to smile at me but fails and gives me this werid face. Jake scoffs and throws his hands in the air.

"Finally, let's go children" Jake says pushing everyone out the door.

I turn and see dad sitting in the kitchen at the same spot. He looks like he's daydreaming. I want to talk to him, but I don't want to be shut down again. But it wouldn't hurt to just say bye, right? I don't know. Just stop Alice, don't think just do. I think to much. I walk up to him and he doesn't notice me yet. Until I'm one step away from him.

"Bye daddy" I say and quickly kiss his cheek before I change my mind. Before I chicken out. I spin around quickly, if he doesn't say anything at least in my mind I could think its because I left quickly and not because of me.

"Alice" the voice is almost foreign. My body freezes and I stop mid step. I slowly turn around. Maybe I'm going crazy I'm definitely hearing things. As I turn to face him he's looking at me with a shocked expression that resembles mine, surely. "Uh becareful" his voice is raspy like he hasn't spoken the whole day.