I hope I got all of it. Much luv
-Joy
That night
Hudsyn's P.O.V
I stopped talking to her a few weeks ago... I didn't really know how I felt one minute I was sad the other minute I was angry. I had enough going on that I tried to put losing her in the back of my mind. I was starting to loose marks on my school work because my life was folding over on top of me. I didn't know what to do. Besides she had Jane and Dawn she didn't need me. I was so mad about everything that had happened between us that I had gotten myself to the point I was sure I didn't need her I had all my other friends. We never really had a strong relationship anyway. I forced myself to look at every up and down of losing her. Thinking that if didn't matter if we were never friends again. It took a few weeks but I had pushed everything about her away all the fights the memories the things she said the times when we were so close. It was all going to be okay once this was out of my mind. It was Monday night and I was coming home from dance class. I don't have wifi there so when I walked in the door my iPod was exploding with messages from Charlie " She's gone" " they can't find her" "she ran away" " has she talked to you" I yelled to my mom that I would be studying in my room if she needed me. I grabbed my dance bag and my back pack and ran to my room. I knew that I had a French test and a Lab report due the next day I had to get everything done. I replied to Charlie saying " your kidding right?" Then I grabbed my French books and got straight to work. A few minutes later Charlie replied saying " I'm serious" I blocked it all out pretending I never got the text. A few minutes later Jane texted me asking if I had seen her. It al settled in this is real.... Just than the phone rang and I picked it up it was her mom she asked to speak to my mom. I could tell it was bad and my mom looked upset. She told me what Was said and I said I had to go study again. I ran back to my room closed the door put headphones in curled up in a ball and started crying. I was constantly texting Charlie and Jane then I started texting dawn my boyfriend and my friend Santa that's her nick name. Everyone was telling me to calm down and all the thoughts came back. What if it was my fault..... But then again it was Charlie she was upset about she cared about the fight with Charlie not our fight. So it couldn't have been me. I kept telling myself this but my brain was yelling to me " you always mess things up its your fault she's gone" What was she doing all of the secrets we told each other flooded in I started shaking and crying my eyes turned blurry and my music faded. What if she.. No. Yes? She couldn't.... She wouldn't.... We had a deal a promise whether we were friends or not. " she's never coming back and it's all your fault" I guess someone must've told her oldest sister because I had just gotten a text from her little brother asking me what had happened.. Just after her oldest sister texted me telling me that it's Okay and that she knew I was blaming on myself. She told me it wasnt my fault and this sentence started my crying again. Her older sister and I always had a strange relationship..... She was like the older sister that always cared and supported me. I kept crying and my mom left to go search for her. My mom had been out searching and I had been laying in bed crying and crying. Just then her older sister texted me she said they found her. I called my mom and she was in Brentwood looking she came home and said goodnight to me that night I cried myself to sleep both in happiness and frustration. I didn't know how this would end and I'm not sure I cared.
