A/N: Heyyy! It's finally here! I've been so excited for this for forever, because Charlie is such a good writer so I've been anticipating this for a few weeks waiting and wondering what it will be like, but here it is. Once I read this I almost started crying, it's so good. The second time I read it, I actually almost started crying again XD WELL ILL LET YOU GET TO THE READING, ugh, I love it, and I love you Charlie! And I love everyone! And I just love XD K read it now byeeee❤️
Joy has been my person for nearly eight years.
She has always been the one I could tell all my problems, secrets, and even just my opinions to, knowing that she would never tell a soul. I had been homeschooled up until grade ten, until I decided to start school. I knew it was going to be hard to transition for me and Joy, because hanging out would be a challenge with the homework and the studying.
So in September I started, and as I expected, it was difficult. I had much less freedom, much more stress, and much more work. I felt terrible, because Joy would ask to hang out and I would be too busy. It killed me every time I had to say no, but I had no option.
Fast forward to the day after Halloween. I had gone out with Dawn, Hydson, and my cousin Mack. There was a little bit of tension in mine and Joy's relationship since I started school, but I was still a little disappointed that Joy had gone out with Jane and some other friends instead of us (even though I didn't invite her, I just assumed that she would go with us).
Anyways, back to the next day. We had been texting, and all of a sudden she nonchalantly told me that she told our secret.
Let's go back a little.
About a month before this, Joy and I came up with the stupidest idea ever. We decided to create a catfish.
catfish:
A catfish is someone who pretends to be someone they're not using Facebook or other social media to create false identities, particularly to pursue deceptive online romances.
(Thx urban dictionary)
Yeah. Stupid. Only she and I knew about this, and I didn't want anyone else to find out. But, she told Dawn.
Charlie fact #1: I have trust issues. If I trust someone, I must really TRUST them. Therefore, if someone breaks that trust, even over something stupid I freak out.
Charlie fact #2: I'm Italian. And Irish. Aka when I'm sad, hurt or disappointed, I get angry.
Needless to say, I was upset. This was the first time she had told anyone anything that I asked her not to, so it really hurt.
My mind began to get foggy with anger. I didn't know what to say. She said it so easily, as if it was nothing. Had she told people other things about me? God, what was I supposed to say? We didn't fight. We didn't have an argument. I just answered shortly and tried not to lose my shit.
After a few minutes, my brain began to shut down. I was no longer angry; just sad. Hurt. Confused. I had to see her that day. I was dreading it. I knew that I couldn't act like everything was normal. I couldn't.
I don't like to tell people my problems most of the time, so I kept our argument silent. I left with my mom, and she could tell that I was quieter than usual. I just told her the usual, "I'm just tired".
We got there, and I started panicking. I had never been in this bad of an argument with Joy before this, and I didn't know what I was gonna do. But, I sucked it up as usual and walked in.
Luckily, I didn't see her anywhere. Instead I saw Hydson talking to another one of our friends. I guess I should've mentioned earlier that Hydson and Joy were no longer friends, and I'm still not really sure why.
