If You Don't Know || Lashton ✓

five

"What was that thing you did last week?" Luke asked as soon as he walked into the studio the next week.

Michael and Calum both weren't there yet, Luke had made sure to get there super early so that he had time to talk to Ashton before the other two showed up.

He just needed answers, it was part of being a Knowing, what had happened had been basically eating him alive for the past week and he just wanted to know why he had reacted that way. Nobody had been that close to him and he didn't know why he hadn't waited for his designated wife to maybe do it once they were married.

Ashton was angry at Luke still and he was ready to slap him if it was needed. The boy was acting as if what they had done was a sin but it wasn't. They're both mature adults and Luke should just learn to accept that what happened couldn't be taken back.

"You mean the hand job or the hickeys or the spandex shorts?" Ashton asked and Luke just gave him a confused look. He knew what the spandex shorts were but the other two things left him clueless. He just knew he left feeling really relaxed and full of bliss and with a bunch of bruises on his neck. It wasn't like Ashton had strangle him, he was just so confused.

"Wait, was that your first time o.rgasming?" Ashton asked with almost a look of disbelief on his face, except he remembered that he was talking to a Knowing, but he was still confused. He thought they'd at least w.ank off or something.

"The thing that had white stuff come out of my body, what was that?" Luke asked, angry that the boy didn't know what he was talking about right away.

"That was a hand job, poor confused Lucas," Ashton said slowly and Luke had a scowl on his face.

"Does that always happen when hand jobs occur?" Luke asked, just wanting Ashton to answer.

"Yes, that was an o.rgasm. They occur after every time you feel immense pleasure from either someone else or yourself," Ashton said bluntly, moving over to a camera and adjusting it to set it up.

"But that's so wrong. It was with another boy. Why did my body react that way?" Luke asked, still following the brunette around like a lost puppy.

"Maybe you actually like boys and just don't want to admit it because of how you were raised. Or because that's then only s.exual pleasure you ever felt," Ashton said calmly, hoping he wouldn't lash out on the confused, naive boy.

"Do you feel that s.exual pleasure of someone touches you like that?" Luke asked, still confused and Ashton choked on the air he was breathing. He wasn't expecting that question and it really threw him off.

"Yeah, I guess, like it feels nice but it's not exactly something I go around telling everyone. It's a private matter and if I do something s.exual with someone, there isn't a need to go and tell everyone," Ashton explained and Luke just nodded his head.

"I haven't told anyone about what has happened, it wouldn't end well anyways. I'd probably be kicked out of the Knowing for doing something so disgusting and repulsing with someone, even worse that it's a boy but it felt nice and I wanted to do it again but I wouldn't know how. I just feel really embarrassed saying it happened with you-" Luke didn't even get to finishing his ramble before he felt a sharp, stinging sensation across his cheek.

Ashton had slapped him.

"Do. Not. Fucking. Insult. Me. You said you wanted me to help you relieve your problem and I agreed to help you with that. You came begging to me and you would've exploded if I hadn't helped so don't go around and twist it around as if I forced you into it when you were practically begging," Ashton seethed.

Luke slowly moved back and looked a bit surprised. He had never seen anyone angry before and he definitely wasn't expecting it to be Ashton and he was definitely not expecting to be slapped. Ashton noticed how the tall, blonde boy had visually shrunk down and he really wanted to apologize because that was completely unlike him so he did.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hit you but not sorry for what I said. What you were saying was really offensive and you didn't seem to understand that it hurt my feelings," Ashton explained and Luke still hadn't made eye contact.

"No, don't apologize. I'm so-so-so," Luke started but he couldn't get himself to say it. He hadn't ever apologized before because of the way he was raised and really had no idea how to do so.

"What are you trying to say?" Ashton asked but Luke couldn't get himself to speak.

"Imsorry," Luke mumbled still looking at the ground. It was practically impossible for Ashton to hear what he had said but once he did, the shorter boy threw his arms around the blonde boy happily.

"Just please don't say something like that again and we'll be fine. Do you want to continue our photoshoot from last week or move on to something else?" Ashton asked, changing the subject while nervously biting on his lip as he saw the boy in front of him start to ponder.

"Is there anything else we can do? I didn't feel one hundred percent comfortable doing that and I'd rather wait a bit until we do it again. Like at least take me to dinner first, gosh."

For a Knowing, Luke sure was sassy. Ashton chuckled at what Luke had said and nodded his head to say it was okay.

"How do you feel about body painting?" Ashton asked Luke and the taller boy gulped, not really knowing what he had gotten himself in to.

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I'm so sleepy and still kind of upset and I feel like sjdkljasfjsj right now so yeah

-malumdictionary