quiet kid & bright hair || joshler

chapter thirteen ✧:･

(tw)

:josh:

I've been tossing and turning all night. My phone keeps buzzing up but I just want to fall asleep. I'll answer them in the morning.

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It's been a half hour, ah fuck it. I'm just going to pull an all-nighter. Also I'm finally going to respond to my texts.

I saw Tyler texted me, normally he's asleep by now.

I began to read everything he sent me, I started to cry

SpookyJim: TYLER
SpookyJim: ANSWER ME.
SpookyJim: tYLERRR
SpookyJim: please don't leave me.
SpookyJim: I don't know how I'd live without you. You're my only happiness, please.
SpookyJim: im coming over.
14 missed calls from SpookyJim

I was threw on my near shirt and grabbed my car keys. I don't care if it's 4am, I need to make sure he's okay.

I felt the tears coming into my eyes, it felt like someone was turning the faucet in my eyes. I can't let another loved one leave me again.

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:tyler:

I threw out my notebook that I've planned for awhile now, grabbed my ukulele and just pondered.

My phone kept vibrating, I don't care anymore. I gently walked out of the house, trying not to make a noise.

They're not going to miss me.

I headed down near the bridge down the road and I sat on a big hill right nearby it.

They always say third time's a charm.

I started strumming the little strings on my ukulele for the last time.

I'm a goner.

Somebody catch my breath

I want to be known by you

Though I'm weak and beaten down

I'll slip away into the sound

The ghost of you is close to me

I'm inside out you're underneath

I've got two faces, blurry's the one I'm not.

I need your help to take him out.

Don't let me be gone...

Don't let me be gone..

Don't let me be gone.

I stood up, looking at my surroundings, silent streets and headlights shining. Not a single soul in sight, it's just me alone. No one to stop me.

I pick up me ukulele and on the top of my lungs I screamed "DONT LET ME BE." I only heard my echo and the sound of a ukulele hitting the pavement. I threw it.

"Tyler, what are you doing?"

...and someone caught me.

I turned around and saw the bright pink hair bobbing up and down as he darted towards me.

"Tyler, what's going on?" Josh said grabbing me into a hug.

"Josh, I'm done. I can't live any longer. You can find a friend better than me. I was just taking up space for someone else in your heart. It was nice knowing you. You were an amazing friend. See you in the future."

He grabbed my arm "You're not leaving me. I don't need this happening again."

I saw him starting to cry, he never cries. What kind of awful human could do this to someone? That's me.

"What do you mean again? I asked him.

"Since we're in a relationship, I think it's the right time to tell each other everything."

He sat down on the damp grass and I sat in front of him, still holding his hand.

"My whole life, I'm always the one getting left. I've never had a steady relationship with anyone and exactly when I think I do, I don't. I thought we had a connection, clearly I'm a terrible person to leave you alone. I was hoping we could have a strong bond to get us through lives. We can live our whole lives together with each other. I'd probably be a useless as I was before I met you, if I didn't come save you. I've never felt this connected to someone as I did to you. If you left me, I'd never be the one to get over it. Please don't leave me..ever."

I felt drops in my eyes as he continued to tell me.

"I've always been the last pick in every situation. There's always someone ahead of me no matter how hard I try. I used to be an innocent little child but now I've just rebelled against it all. It's all because no one cared. I had a best friend once, he left me for someone else. He made my life torturous after it ended. I had a girlfriend once, she left me for someone better after how much dedicated I was to her. After all of that, I've just not cared about anything until I met someone as gentle as you. I used to act, look and seem different but now I'm just who i am. I've never been cared for but I found hope when I found you."

I started to cry into Josh held me into his arms. "I've never known that. I'll never ditch you, never leave you, never gonna give you up. None of that."

Josh started smiling with tears streaming slowly down his face.

"I'll always be next to your side, maybe that was selfish of me to do that. I'll let you learn more about me and tell you who blurry is."

"Blurryface is my split personality practically. He is me, I am blurry. He's just that voice that always make every night a living nightmare. He tells me the opposite everything, the one who caused everything, he's made everything terrible. I'm too scared to tell anyone this, they'll think I'm weird. This was going to be my third time until you stopped me. Josh, I owe my life to you. I'll never leave your side.

We hugged each other tightly. I felt his warmness on my slight coldness.

"Now what do we do? It's almost 6am and no one's around. We have school tomorrow." I asked him.

"I never said we had to show up to school, just say we got sick?

"I'm not going to ditch school, are you insane?"

"Meet me at my place on the route you go to school from. We'll stay at my place until school's over."

"You're still a bad influence to me but I still love you more than anything else in the world."

— a/n
I was being nice and not giving you a cliffhanger so I posted two chapters at once.

This is the only sad part in the book so you don't have to worry about it in the future. I just wanted to give you guys more of a backstory so it's easier to understand more.

Also thank you for the nice comments ^-^ <3