Tell me how can I right my wrongs
lani
I didn't mean to run away from Camila that night, she just kinda... freaked me out. It's been three days since that happened and I haven't talked to Camila since. Normani keeps questioning if I'm okay. I just keep thinking about what she told me. Is it all true? How can I trust her again?
"Keh, are you sure you're good?" Normani entered my room. I didn't even know she walked in.
"Yeah, I'm good." I told her.
"No you're not," she sat on the edge of my bed. "Seriously, what's up?"
I sighed and stared at her. "Camila."
"My friend Camila? You're still talking to her?" The darker girl questioned.
I nodded. "She told me she loved me and I don't know how I feel." I summed up the situation.
I could tell Mani was still trying to wrap her head around the idea. It was a lot to adjust to.
She shook her head and furrowed her eyesbrows, "anddd when did this happen?"
"After that dinner you forced me to go to, she contacted me and we've kinda been talking," I shrugged. "But things kinda escalated. I drunk called her and said something and then she said some things..." I let out a breath of air, frustrated. "And now we're here."
"Wow." Was all Normani could say. "You really need to talk to Camila and sort this out."
"But she has Dinah!" I exclaimed, using my hands.
Normani nodded, seeing my point and didn't say a word.
"What do I do, Mani?" I looked at her for help.
Normani shrugged. "Do what your heart says."
"I don't know what my heart is saying either." I confessed, ashamed. Ashamed that I cant figure out my own fucking feelings. "I think I'll give her a call." I nodded.
Normani gave me an encouraging smile, patting my thigh before getting up and leaving my room.
I pulled out my phone and called her number. She picked up on the third ring.
"Kehlani?"
"Camila, hey." I breathed out. "Do you have time to talk?" I heard shuffling around before I got a reply.
"Yeah, um, what's up?"
"I wanted to say that I'm really sorry for running out on you the other day." I frowned.
"It's cool." I could tell it wasn't.
"Can we meet in person? This is something I need to tell you not over the phone."
"Okay. Lunch? We can meet at our favorite pizza place."
"Alright. I'll see you in fifteen." I said before hanging up.
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I waited at a table for Camila, I couldn't help but shake my leg. What was I going to say? I don't even know. I looked up when I noticed her small frame appear in front of me.
"Hey." She said.
"Hi." I replied.
"So? What did you want to talk to me about?" Camila asked me.
I took a deep breath and stared at her briefly. "I've been using this time to think about what you've said."
Camila shifted, straightening her posture. "And?"
"I can't forgive you, Camila." I blurted.
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"I can't forgive you, Camila." The words that made me come crashing down.
"At least, not yet. Give me time." She added.
I looked down and played with the rings on my fingers that Dinah had given me for my birthday.
"Oh." I nodded. "I screwed up that bad huh?"
Kehlani nodded. "You really, really hurt me Camila. I can't completely trust you... Every time you say something to me I don't know if it's the truth."
I hurriedly reached across the table and grabbed her hand. "Please believe me Lani. I mean every word I say. I love you."
She stayed silent as she kept her gaze on my thumbs running over her skin.
"What about Dinah?"
"You already know how I feel."
She quickly pulled her hands away from mine. "This is way too much for me. I need to think more."
"Kehlani, please." I begged. "You've had a lot of time to think, and so have I. I want to restart things. Please let me fix the things I've done wrong to you."
Lani frowned as she pursed her lips together. "I-"
I didn't want to waste anymore time as I leaped across the table and grabbed Kehlani's cheeks, pressing my lips onto hers. I could tell she was shocked but it didn't take long before she kissed back.
Finally my lips felt whole and happy again. I missed the way Kehlani's lips felt in between mine. I can't describe the feeling- it's just too... I don't even know.
"Camila? Kehlani?"
