The New Boy

Chasing Cars

To my best friend because I love her xxx

Sorry I haven't uploaded in agggggggeees but I have been very busy. This one is a lot longer to make up for it though. I will try and get another one done in the next couple of weeks. Thanks

Enjoy xxx

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I felt my head swirl. I pulled my hand up and rubbed my forehead. I suddenly realised. I opened my eyes and looked at my hand. I put my hand down and took deep breaths. I smiled. I looked around the room. I moved my fingers and toes. I had pins and needles all over but I could still move them. I laughed quietly. I moved my arm and bumped something. I turned my head further. Nick was asleep on the edge on my bed. I lifted my hand and ran my fingers through his hair. He sharply jumped up half asleep and looked at me with groggy eyes. He stared for a moment and then it snapped. “Oh my God Becca.” He reached out and grabbed my hand. “How are you feeling?” He said as he shifted moving his legs under the bed.

“Ok, severe pins and needles but ok.”

“Good. How’s the wound?”

“A bit achy but fine.” I looked at his eyes. He was so happy. I looked at his mouth. He had a massive smile. I looked back up to meet his eyes and returned the smile. “Nick...”

“Yeah?”

“Thank you.”

“You don’t need to say thank you.”

“I don’t need to say thank you? You saved OUR lives! We would have died without you coming back.” I put my hand on my stomach.

His eyes dropped to the floor and so did his smile. “Becca don’t worry about it.”

“I really mean it.” I reached out and pulled up his chin and looked him in his eyes, something was up. “...Ok.” I looked at him again and there was something bothering him? “Nick what’s wrong?” I paused I thought for a minute. “It’s the baby? Isn’t it?”

“Well yeah.” He looked down at the floor.

“Oh god I lost it didn’t I?” I put my hands over my face and rolled my head back on the bed. I mean I never wanted the baby but I didn’t want to lose it? I felt my hands being pulled away.

“No you still have it. It’s just...” What does he mean? Am I having twins now or something? “It might not last full term and if it does its likely to have disabilities?”

I didn’t know how I felt. I mean I was happy to still have it but having the fact that I could lose it at anytime will scare me every day until it’s born and when it is born it could be disabled which means my life will be even harder. I mean I had thought about adoption but I think I will just feel even worse now because not many people would want to adopt a child with disabilities so they could be there their whole lives and that’s not how I would want my childs life to end up.

“You ok?” I nodded lightly. “Look whatever happens I will still be here ok?” I nodded. “Are you hungry or thirsty?”

“No not really just tired.”

“Ok well you go back to sleep. I will go tell the doctor that you woke up.” He shifted in his seat. I suddenly panicked.

“Don’t leave yet. I don’t want to be by myself.”

“No I wasn’t going to. I was just getting comfortable.” He took my hand and gave it a light squeeze. “Night.”

I smiled at him and closed my eyes and before I knew it I was asleep. I woke up a while later to see Hannah sitting on the chair next to me. “Hi Hannah”