Diary Of A Girl In Love. (The Script FanFic)

On the bus to Italy.

Jess POV

For a while everyone was quiet. We had to ring up the place in Italy to tell them we were going to be late.

It was now 10am, and we had planned to arrive in Italy at around 7pm if not later.

As usual, I sat at the back of the bus by the window. How could I tell him? This was killing me. I couldn't hurt him. Especially if it was with Ben. I was drunk... But that still isn't a good enough excuse, is it?

''Jess...'' 

I looked up, and met his eyes. My hear warmed up, a smile suddenly formed on my face. I knew I loved him. 

''Dan... hey'' I breathed. 

He sat down beside me. I flinched, I had to tell him. I knew I had to. I didn't want to start a relationship with this man without him knowing the truth.

''There is something I need you to know'' I said before he could say anything. His eyes widened.

''Me too'' He spoke.

''What?'' I asked.

''I mean, there is something I need to tell you...'' 

Yet again there was silence while we studied each others faces. There was something off about the way he was looking at me. It scared me. I prepared myself for the worse. But what could be worse than sleeping with another person?

''No, you go ahead...'' Danny said. 

''I think you should go first'' I insisted. 

''If you say so...'' Danny turned away and looked down at his hands.

I began feeling nervous. I couldn't even think of what he would tell me.

''Before I say anything, I want you to know that, it wasn't meant to happen'' He looked up at me, I opened my mouth to reply but he cut me off.

''Don't say anything, not yet, please.'' I only nodded. My heart beating quicker than ever.

''Last night'' He paused, like he was thinking of what to say.

''I did something stupid. It wasn't planned, and I'm sorry, I was drunk... I didn't even know what was going on. I thought it was you... I didn't know what happened until I woke up... I... Jess I'm sorry. I... slept with someone else last night. ''

There were actual tears in his eyes, his voice was wobbly. I could feel a lump in my throat, I couldn't speak. Had he just said that? Was I hearing things? Had him and I done the exact same thing to each other?

I was starting into his watery eyes, he was hurt. I could feel my own eyes water. 

''Please say something'' He whispered, I couldn't take this anymore.

I leaned in and kissed him, at first he was surprised, like he didn't expect me to kiss him. But then he replied with kissing me even harder. I wrapped my arms around him and he did the same. 

After a while I pulled away and looked him in the eyes. 

With one hand i whipped away his tears. 

''Dan... ' I had to tell him. 

''I'm sorry Jess, I know I messed up.. but'' 

''I slept with someone last night too.'' I cut him in. Getting straight to the point. 

His hands lets go of my waist and his face expression showed nothing. 

''Dan...Dan I''

''Wow.'' Dan said, turning away from me. ''Really? How could... What?'' 

Danny's POV

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. How could this have happened? In a way I was relieved, but on the other hand.... 

''Who?'' I suddenly asked, surprising myself. I turned to look at her again and I could see tears in her eyes. It hurt me to see her like this.

She didn't reply.

Did I really want to know?

''Ben.'' 

I felt my heart suddenly break into million tittle pieces. I felt angry. Why couldn't I forgive her like she forgave me. I couldn't even look at her. Ben. BEN of all people. 

''I didn't know what was happening' she said. I didn't want to hear her try and explain anything.

This hurt, and I couldn't explain why it hurt so much. To think I did the same thing to her. 

''Are you fucking kidding?'' I was now on my feet, pretty much shouting at her.

I couldn't calm myself down. I wished I could, this was hurting her. I could see it, but I couldn't help myself. It was hurting me too. 

''Dan, I-'' 

''Oh save it. '' I said before turning around. Tears stinging my eyes. I hated myself for this. I wasn't even angry at her. I was angry at Ben. 

Why did I have to get like this? Why was it so easy for her to forgive me. I hated this. I wanted to go back to her and tell her everything was okay, but I couldn't  I wasn't able to. I wanted to ,but something was stopping me.

I had to talk to Ben.