What is Freedom?

Finally Free

"Laufeyson. Get up." It was the voice from earlier, but she now had a face. Not one I recognised, but one I was relieved to see. I hadn't seen any other faces in years, besides the relfection of my own in the glass of the wall, which the woman was standing infront of.

I stood, and the glass wall rose, leaving nothing between the woman and I. Then I saw the rope in her hands. Great.

I some-what willingly allowed her to bind my hands, a precaution she took because she knew better than to trust me. She showed this again by gesturing for three guards to come surround me, one on each side and one behind, with the lady in front.

'How many times will I be marched down a corridor?' I asked myself.

Out the large double doors and down the corridor we went, the rope burning my skin as I tried to adjust my wrists to be more comfortable, an unachievable goal.

The main doors swung open and immediately I was blinded. There was nothing. Whiteness and light.

I blinked a few times, and my eyes adjusted. Snow. The whiteness was snow. Had it become winter already? How close were the holidays?

The chill of the winter would be unpleasent to those who had warmth in their blood, but to me, it was soothing.

My bare feet sunk into an inch or so of cold snow. I tried to hide the smile playing at my lips, but it was near impossible. Many of my best memories had come from playing in the snow.

Mother had always said my brother and I would catch ill we were out so much! Though, now I suppose she directed her words toward my brother...

I snapped myself out of the daydream. How could I use the word 'brother' when he hadn't come to visit me once? How could I call Frigga 'mother' when she had lied to me?

I suppose I had to admit, silently to myself, that I was secretly hoping they would accept me as family. They had before, why not now? I also had to admit that I hated what I'd done, and my family were the only people who could help me.

Before I realized it, we were walking up the steps to the palace.

'I can't go in there. No. It's not happening!!' I thought to myself, "But... but I must!'

I didn't have an option either way, as the matter was. I was lead into the main lobby, down the main corridor, and finally into the trial room which was at the end of the corridor. This is where the guards stopped, but I was motioned to sit in a seat, small and uncomfortable looking, infront of Odin, who was behind a stand.

I didn't understand exactly why I was called here; I had been through trial before my imprisonment, yet here I was. Though, I did notice a significant lack of people, and the people there were not in a normal court position.

A few people, other guards I assumed, were standing by the door. A few important people sat in the back of the large room, I suppose to serve witness or to listen over this apperently urgent conversation. Thor stood to the left of Odin, and Frigga to his right. This ensemble gave me a feeling in the pit of my stomach that I didn't like.

I tried to get comfortable in the chair and rested my hands on the small table infront of me for a moment before holding them out. "Mind unbinding me?"

Odin nodded to one of the guards, who then pulled out a knife and, with one swift movement, cut the rope that bound my hands. For a moment, I feared he might have cut me, but his skill was great.

As the guard resumed his place, Odin's loud voice boomed, "Do you know why it is we have called you here?"

"As a matter of fact, that was what I was just wondering," I said, rubbing my wrists where they had rope burns, "The guards who lead me down here were more reserved than chatty." This use of sarcasm miffed him slightly, I could tell by the look in his eye. I shouldn't have done it, but it slipped off my silver tounge before I could control it.

"You are here," stated the Allfather, ignoring my comment, "Because of your actions against Asgard and Midgard."

"Aah, that!" I could not stop the smirk from spreading across my face, but quickly it vanished, and I sat straighter. "About that-"

"Your actions have not, and still do not go unpunished," Odin cut me off, "You have served your time in captivity, and I well hope you have thought better of your previous actions." As I was about to tell him that I had, he continued, "Just as a precaution, I shall list a mere fraction of your crimes."

"No, that's really not nessicary.." I tried to stop him, but he persisted.

"Arson, Assault, Disturbing the peace, Homicide, Manslaughter, Murder, Treason-"

"I GET IT!!!" I shouted, not bothering to care about the outburst, but sounding calmer when I continued. "Look, I'll be the first to admit, I did some horrific things that I'm not prideful of. However, I will also point out you have already given me trial, listed EVERY. BLASTED. ONE. of my crimes, and imprisoned me for YEARS. Do you, oh great Allfather," this I said with sarcasm, "deem it nessicary to resurface and repeat what has made sure I do not eat or sleep? The things that are responsible for taking my sanity? The things that kill me inside?! I know I've caused you pain, but you've caused me pain aswell! Admit to that!!"

"After all you'd done, I had little doubt that a monster such as yourself could feel pain and emotion such as you claim!" Odin roared.

Nobody gaped or gasped. There was only silence as the horrid word echoed in my mind.

Monster.

The Allfather took advantage of my silence and spoke again.

"And as King of Asgard, Allfather, I have come to a decision. In front of witness and with the approval of the Odinson family, I hereby disown you."

His voice did not break. There were no tears in his eyes, nor Frigga's, nor Thor's. Though, there were in mine.

"You are dismissed, Laufeyson."

Laufeyson.

This label became, in that instant, as much an insult as 'monster', but I suppose that was who I had become.

Loki Laufeyson, the monster.




~Author's Note~
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