Breathe (Twlight Fanfic)

Chapter 17 - Have A Little Faith

Bella has been out for 2 days. In a normal situation 2 days is no time at all. But when you're in such a intense situation it often feels like a life time.

I was thinking about what Rosalie said, about trying to talk to Bella. I want to but it's so painful to see her like that. With a thousand different tubes and needles in her. I feel like talking to her might just feel like a kick in between the legs.

I'm not sure what Bella went through but I know it wasn't nice. Jasper decided to go stay in a hotel to get free of some of the emotions. Hospitals as you can imagine is a very difficult setting for him to be in.

I know I need to at least try to talk to Bella. But I want to wait for the perfect timing. I know this sounds so stupid and immature. I know deep down inside I know there's no perfect time and i'm purposely delaying going to see her. I haven't seen her yet but I've been waiting outside her room all day and all night. Alice is trying to talk me into seeing her. I've seen her through my families mind but seeing her myself through my own eyes would be so surreal. I know today is the day I'm going to see her. I have to see her incase... I couldn't think like that I have to think about existence in a positive perspective. Like Carlisle said positivity and faith is the only thing that can save her now.

We've been watching Mungo for the time being. Carlisle looking for a safe environment to place him and Bella in when she comes too. We have a few places but Carlisle is going to meet with them before any decisions are made. The worst part of all of this is that no serious charges can be placed until Bella wakes up. The only thing thats holding him in jail is a charge for resisting arrest which is a 10 days sentence and a 1000$ fine.

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Bella's POV

"Bella?" The angle said

"Can you hear me?" I wanted to call out and tell the angel that I was here. I listening.

"I know this is a hard time for you. Me seeing you like this is awful." Why can the angel see and I cannot. If I'm talking with an angel I mustn't be in hell. "I know you feel like you want to give up maybe even like you have to" Do I have a choice? I wanted to ask but my mouth was no where to be found.

"Listen to me Bella." The way my name flowed off of the angles tongue made shivers spread down my missing spine "You don't have to give up. You can choose to fight, to wake up or to lie there still forever." I can't believe that I actually have a choice. Maybe I'm in between heaven and hell. Is this the devil playing tricks?

"Please make the right decision not so much for me but for Mungo." Mungo?  "He's alright perfectly happy and healthy. But he needs his mother" Mungo?

Mungo's name kept repeating itself through my head. Is he really okay? Maybe  I could be with him after all maybe we could be a family. But giving up is so easy. I wouldn't have to anything ever again I could just cut the ropes and not have to worry about anyone but myself...But that isn't who I am. I fought this long and this hard through life and I was never known to be the one to take the easy route. Thats what winded me up here in the first place after all.

a bright light started to cloud my vision distracting me from my thoughts. Not only distracting me from them but forgetting them. Not only distracting me from them but forgetting them. Wait did I already say that? The light keeps getting brighter and brighter and now I can't think of anything but the light. And everything else that just happened is clearing my mind my brain is being wiped like a white board in a class room.

Edward's POV

I was standing outside Bella's room with my hand on the door trying to will myself to turn the knob. I keep telling myself to make it quick "like a bandaid" as some would say. I could hear the machinery that was keeping Bella stable. I twisted the door knob quickly but didn't open the door. I took a deep breath catching Bella's potent sent with it. I opened the door.