Breathe (Twlight Fanfic)

Chapter 21

Today's the day I'm leaving the hospital. Yes Im nervous about going to go and live with Grace or "grandma"-I'm still not 100% sure what to call her- but I would rather go and live with her than spend another day here under the watchful eye of the Cullen's, well two of them at least. Of course Dr. Cullen had to stick around and care for me which wasn't too bad but sometimes he got a little too close for comfort. Then there was his son Edward Cullen, him and I have never really been entirely on the same page. I mean sure he's the reason I'm alive but I'm often irritated by his mood swings, I swear he has some sort of a personality disorder. Sometimes when he comes and visits me he's all cheery and talkative, asking me basic questions, and when I say basic I mean basic, I would ask these kinds of questions to a 2 year old. "What's your favourite food?" "What's your favourite animal?" little question quiz's like that could go on for hours. And other times when Edward comes in he looks at me with the highest level of hatred I've ever seen in his eyes. I wouldn't say I'm afraid of Edward because I'm truly not -something about him tells me he would never hurt me- but he can be intimidating. Plus he never leaves he's always here, if not in my room he's somewhere in the hospital. 

"Bella? You okay?" I looked at Dr. Cullen confused. "You zoned out there for about 2 minutes" I really get trapped in my thoughts sometimes. A blessing or a curse? I don't know.

"Yes, sorry... I was just thinking" I said packing up the last things of my things. Edward had Alice go out and do some shopping for me and Mungo. I was furious and told them to return it all, but then Alice guilt tripped me by saying how she though "I didn't like what she chose for me" And I really didn't but I could never be so rude and admit that, she also went in and told me how she excited was and how much work it took her. Of course I gave in, its really impossible to say no to Alice.

"Well it's time for you to go. Grace is at her house preparing for the both of you" He gestured to Mungo and I. "Edward offered to drive the both of you to her home" last time I seen him he didn't look the happiest with me. I don't understand, I did nothing at all to him this time but he still looked so furious. Why would he offer to drive me.

"Of course he did" I muttered sarcastically under my breath. I thought it was too low for him to hear, but judging on his chuckle he heard me. 

There was a quiet knock at the door, I looked over to see Edward looking god like leaning against the door frame....did I really just say that? "You guys ready to go?" I just nodded grabbing my crutches. ouch these things really hurt the armpits. Edward almost begged me to use a wheelchair instead, but I really don't want to be tied down to anything. I Hobbled towards the door, Edward grabbed my bag and Mungo because my hands were preoccupied by my crutches.

I followed Edward out to his silver Volvo stumbling a few times and of course Edward was there to catch me every time.

Edward helped me into the front seat then went round to put Mungo in his chair. 

"So are you Excited to be going to your grandmothers?" Edward said sliding in to the front seat starting his car.

"No" I stated simply. I didn't really want to talk right now, I had to much on my mind. 

He looked confused "Why not? I would have thought you would be excited to leave the hospital."

"I am, but that doesn't mean I want to go and live Grace." I shrugged. He still looked confused. "I don't like new beginnings, they've all turned out bad for me so far"

"So your glass is half empty instead of half full." he stated.

"No my glass is nearly empty waiting to be filled. I'm open for new positive possibilities, however I don't want to get my hopes up. I have zero aspirations for myself nor do I really care about myself at this point if I'm honest. The water in my glass isn't mine, it was never mine, It's Mungo's. Therefore my glass is nearly empty waiting to be filled with hope for more than just him, I want to be able to believe in myself not just in him."