30 Day Letter Challenge

Day Two: Crush.

Dear Megan A.H.,

Bet you probably saw this one coming ;) eh? Well, if you didn't, ta da. I don't really know what to write in this because wow I'm speechless. Joking, I'm never speechless. Joking, I get speechless. See, now you don't know if I'm joking or joking about joking or even joking about joking about joking. As you can see, I'm just filling this with random things right now because you know how stupid I can get.

On the real though, when I first met you, I didn't think that I would have developed a crush on you. I was just looking for people to read my book to be completely honest. And yet you just effortlessly pulled me into your world with your nonchalance and perfect grammar & spelling. We had some great talks be it on serious topics or just to have some fun in the group chat; even talking privately felt so natural. In many ways, you've made me confront some ancient devils within me and helped me get rid of them by letting go. Thank you for that, you have no idea how much they've been bothering me and how much it meant to me that you were so supportive.

I know how hard life is, yours more than others, and I want you to know that it isn't your burden to carry alone. Maybe you can't find it in you to ask me for help sometimes, but your father is a great man who I'm betting will always be there to help you. He is a strong man who has been through a lot from what I hear from you and I hold him in high esteem. Always remember that scene from Inside Out when Riley comes home and everything she's been bottling up just rushes out of her. Sadness isn't a bad emotion, it can be cathartic like how writing this letter is. I believe that you will always make the best decision for yourself, you're smart, brave, and caring. No one can ever take that away from you.

You'll get through this rough patch, just like how you'll get through everything life throws at you because you're you. No matter how scared or sad you ever feel, know that the man downstairs/ upstairs/ in the next room (I forgot where your parents usually are) will always be there for you. Also this guy right here but he can wait haha. (P.S. When did I get this patient? I'm never like this hahaha, well, I guess it's like what I said, you always bring out the best in me.) I will always care for you and your wellbeing. Thank you for caring about me too and for asking me to sleep all the time, it means a lot to me even though I always ask for more time.

I hope that one day, we can finally meet. But until that day comes, I hope this letter, our texts, snaps, Skype sessions old and new, can stand in my place on your phone or laptop screen. We aren't together, but I will always be here for you through thick and thin. Just give me a holler since I'm not good at reading minds like you are. I'll see you later, or tomorrow, or the day after that, or next week, or next month, or some other time because I have a feeling that we'll always come back to each other. Probably, eh maybe, should be, hopefully. Meh, I know it, I always know things. Bless my Pisces intuition. Until whenever I see you, always have a great day. And don't kill that b*tch Caitlyn and the junior who insulted you, I'll make them pay. Well, this letter is getting longer than I thought it would so I'll end it here but lets be honest, this is just a new start. (P.S. My shitty internet fooked up and it deleted my original draft so now I'm pretty pissed :-) Know that my original draft was longer and of course better than this.)

Always love,

Sparkles/ Katara/ doge/ f*ckwit/ Pendragon/ Eugene *inserts whatever else nicknames I might've accidentally forgotten*