Dear reader,
I can honestly say that I've been spending the last few days thinking of a person whom I hate or who has caused me the most harm. Sure, some names have popped up here and there but none of them really stick, after I actually think things through.
All my life, I've never wanted to hate a person, I didn't know why then but I do now. I'll get around to that in a bit. So, when life was tough and I really wanted to hate someone, I made myself hate myself. I didn't want to spread the hate, to spread the pain it caused so I hated myself so as to not burden anyone else with it. For a few years, that was all I did. I focused the hate towards myself, loved everyone else as much as I could and helped others.
One day, I snapped. Loving and helping everyone else did nothing for me, no one else loved me or cared the way I did. It was like no one could connect with me, I spent my whole life believing that you would be treated how you treat others and that idea kept biting me in the ass. I wanted to hate everyone and everything.
But hate is a cycle. Or at least that's what people say it is. They don't see the bigger picture, hate is a downwards spiral. You see, a cycle doesn't end. It goes round and round forever and that isn't what hate is. Hate can always end, just like a spiral can, it can spread out into a new line or whatever else shape it wants. It isn't destined to go on for all of eternity. Forgiving and letting go, that's branching out from the downwards spiral of hate. I don't know what else to say right now so yeah, just something to sleep on I guess.
Sincerely,
Eugene Tan.
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