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Phase Seven;

{trigger warning, sexual assault}

Luke woke up dizzy, confused, with the miasma of dry liquor stuck to them.
They weren't sure where they were until they recognized the sheets on the bed beneath them. Luke decided to see the damage of last night and clean up before preparing the excuse for their mother.

They stood at the mirror, disappointed with who was staring back. Luke had light purple bags under their eyes, dry eyeliner and mascara stained their pale cheeks. Their bloodshot eyes looked up and down at the mirror, the skirt that sat on Luke's hips was now wrinkled and dingy. Luke decided that was enough, and knew what they needed to do. They stumbled into the shower, trying not to fall, Luke let the cold water drench them. The water froze their already chilled, tired bones.

Soon enough, the scent of white cherry blossom body wash filled the room. Luke had their head leaned on the wet tile of the shower letting the cold water run until they thought they cleansed the liquor from skin.

They didn't bother drying their hair, Luke walked cautiously down the steps in a big blue tee shirt. Nobody noticed them until the last step creaked in the silence, Liz was the first to turn around, she had a sour look stained to her face, while Michael sat across from her with a sorrowful expression on his.

Liz cleared her throat
"Luke take a seat,"

They grimaced, taking a seat in the middle of Michael and their mother

"M-mum I can explain.."

"You don't need to, Michael already has. I just need you to explain why Michael had to drag you back here at three in the morning 'cause you were piss drunk."

Luke ran a hand through their wet hair before answering,
"I-I was upset then I decided to have a few drinks, t-to take my mind off it.."

"Okay, you know what happened while you were drowning in alcohol, Luke?"

"W-what do you mean, I don-"

"Did you even bother worrying where Ashton was? If they were okay? Or were you busy being a selfish child as usual?"
Liz wiped a stray tear from her cheek

"I tried looking, but I didn't see them.."

"Luke, Ashton was raped last night. Do you have any idea how deep in trouble you are? You've damaged your best friend because of your selfish needs. You left them alone in a crowd at a strangers house. When did that seem like a good idea?"

"N-no that can't-"
Luke didn't realize they were crying until a salty tear landed on their chapped lips

"Michael, you're excused. Go pack.
Luke, get dressed and go over to Ashton's right now"
Liz rubbed her temples

Luke didn't pay attention to Michael that morning, they were to scared for Ashton.
Luke didn't spend as much time as they have usually do getting ready, they thought it'd be rude of them.
Luke quickly slipped on their PINK sweatpants and a gray sweater before slipping out into the chilled, near spring air.

As they rang The Irwin's door bell, a wave of guilt washed over them when they saw Ashton's brother, He looked tired, his eyes were red and puffy, and he had tear tracks running down his face.

"H-hi, c-can I see Ashton?"
Luke stuttered with their head down

"Let me go see if it's okay with them.."
Harry's voice was hoarse and dull, he was about to shut the door before Luke muttered something

"Can I come inside? I-it's really cold out here-"

"I think it's best if you stay out here."
Then Harry shut the door in their face

Luke just sighed and sat on the step, they waited about 15 minutes, by the time they were let in the cold was gnawing at their bones.
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You could hear Ashton's weeping from the stairs, when Luke opened the door all he saw was a lump on Ashton's bed shaking and whimpering,

"A-Ashton, It's Luke.."
They stated quietly, as they sat on Ashton's bed

"Why the fuck are you here?"

"To apologize..."

Ashton just bursted into tears again while trying to kick Luke off their bed

"Ash stop crying and listen to me!"
Luke snapped
"You're being so dramatic right now just shut u-"

Ashton sat up on their bed, glaring at their so called best friend

"What?"

"You know why I'm crying Luke? Because I just got emotionally, physically and mentally damaged, because of some lucky friend of mine who ditched me to fix a relationship that never fucking existed. You didn't go through that terror and violation Luke, you didn't wake up feeling filthy and in an overwhelming amount of pain. You don't know how it feels, till it happens to you."
Ashton growled, leaving Luke speechless.
"If you're done, you can let yourself out."

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Hello lovelies,
Hope you guys are doing well,
I'm sorry if this chapter was way to triggering for those of us that have those experiences. I will definitely alert you at the beginning (as usual) , to avoid causing discomfort. Once again I apologize if it was more triggering than expected, the subject will not be discussed again until later on in the book.

I also want to apologize if this chapter wasn't up to my regular standards. I'm currently without wifi so I have a whole load of writers block.

But, out of boredom, and by request, I'm starting a demon!5sos ot4 type thing.
The blurb, playlist, and warning should be up soon.

Thanks if you read this a/n, ilysm

Laterz
-Authors