>>I'm sorry if I say I need ya but I don't care I'm not scared of love 'cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker is that so wrong? Is it so wrong? That you make me strong<<
*Niall's POV*
I was terrified. I was so scared when I went to see her. She looked pale and sick and I of course blamed it on myself. I should have given up the opportunity to explain to me what happened but instead I broke her heart and herself. I was pissed. I was so fucking pissed, you can't imagine. And I was jealous fuck and cared about her way too much, but she's my girlfriend, or was. I still love her. She told me she loved me too, well she texted it but it's the same. I want her to be mine again but I'm not sure if she's ready. I don't know what to do because I don't want to do the wrong thing and mess up again. I love her.
When I was at the hospital I just say there holding onto her hand. Her nails painted a light green, perfect as always. Even though she was going through a hard time, she still had everything so perfect.
But she was broken. Under that perfect exterior, she was a girl who was broken and had pieces to be mended. She was insecure and needed to be told she was loved every day. Yet she didn't believe it. I'll change that. One day, I hope to hear her say she's beautiful and actually believes it.
When Liam and Maya told me what happened everything made sense but I felt like shit of how things went south. I wrote that song a few days after we broke it off. I was hurting and call me lame and not manly but I was in love and I still am. I thought my girlfriend was cheating on me and I saw him on top of her, do you blame me? I know I should have given her a chance to explain but I don't think I was thinking at the time. I hated myself for it. But a song came out from the situation and I saw how she looked at me when I was singing. I know she didn't care that it was about our relationship hiccup and that she was proud of me and the song I had written. I've been really getting into my music a lot more recently. I can't wait to graduate and get to work teaching, hopefully along side Aria. The primary and high school was in a joint building so we would be seeing a lot of each other if she accepts the job. I hope she does.
The night I saw her, and we said goodbye I just stood out there smiling and just taking in everything that had happened, and I panicked a bit considering she didn't tell me she loved me but I knew she did because before she headed back in I saw the smile. The smile that appeared everytime I told her I loved her. I knew she loved me. And then she sent the text and I knew she was watching me. And I did the first thing I could think of. Kiss her. But I couldn't so I blew her one. Cliché, I know! But who cares. I loved her and she loved me. But things were still complicated.
I knew we still needed to work out some things and figure out where to go with your relationship but it'll take some time. And I'll wait.
I'll wait for her. I'll do anything for her. I love her.
I'm in love with her. Forever.
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A/N
Filler chapter as you can see and really fucking short but it's gonna get good, promise. It's nearing the end but it's gonna be good ...
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-Z
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