Perfect Imperfections (n.h a.u)

Chapter 7

>>All we do is drive. All we do is think about the feelings that we hide. All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign<<

Niall and I sat together eating dinner with the tv playing in the background whilst we chatted about the rest of our day.

"So what other classes do you take besides English?" Niall asked as he took a drink of lemonade.
"Well English has always been like my top priority. I dance from time to time but I'm not any good. What about you? Any secret talents?"
"I'm a terrible dancer, that I can tell you. But I do sing. Play some guitar too." Niall shifted in his seat so we he was turned facing me.
"That's pretty awesome. Back home I used to take music in high school but I don't think I was very good."
"I guess I'd have to hear you sing some time and then tell you. I highly doubt you're that bad. I never thought I'd be any good but then I ended up singing at some music festivals back home too."

Niall seemed to be so different then every other person I have met. He was an English major and he sang and played guitar. That's why he finds a routine boring. I like sticking to one thing although I am not going to lie the whole singing and English major seems really cool. It's like Maya and her drama and English majors. Diverse. I guess it's never a bad thing, I guess I just want to concentrate on one thing at a time but then again how long could I possibly study for? I can't spend my entire life studying and not get anywhere.

This is what I mean when I say I'm confused. I'm a confused mess at times. I don't want too much on my plate but also I don't want to waste time later when I spend the time studying when I could be working or married. This was normal though. I have always been confused yet I also know what I want. It's just at times when I see friends who are so diverse in their decisions, I wish I was the same. It's quite crazy to be honest.

"You zone out quite a lot don't you ?" Niall said snapping me out of my thoughts. Oh right. Niall. Right here.
I shook my head trying clear my head.
"Sorry. Tends to happen way too often. Just thinking."
"I really wonder what goes through that pretty little head of yours." Niall said with a small smile forming on his lips. Did he just call me pretty?
"You don't. Trust me. Too many things all at once" I smiled slightly as I set my empty plate on the table. Niall followed my actions.

"Try me." He challenged. Okay then.
"What do you want to know then?" I sat cross legged turning to face him.
"Why your thoughts about love is what you told me." Well I never thought about this. I paused for a few seconds before I could answer.

"Well I believe you have to date. You have to get to know the person or you will be stuck with him for the rest of your life not knowing what to do because you made the wrong decision because you didn't know him."

"But Aria, if you know he is the right person for you when you first meet why waste the time and get married and do the learning whilst you're married and have the adventure then. Like I told you in class, when you date you learn everything about each other and then you get married and then there's nothing left to enjoy. Whats the point?"
I listened to his words for what felt like the hundredth time that day. I processed everything he had said.

"I guess you are right but my point is what if you go on like one date and fine you think he is amazing but what if when you get married he isn't the person you thought he was and soon you find yourself regretting everything?"

Niall paused, the same way I did earlier before continuing.
"That's the risk you have to take. But I know something for sure, if you get the feelings when you meet that person then they're the right person for you. When you meet the person I think that is when you will understand what I'm talking about. Maybe you have met that person already but you haven't processed your feelings yet."