Cold Mask (Kylo Ren X Reader)

Chapter 4

The flight had taken a long time, the place you should be heading to was near the planet Jakku. You haven't really heard much about the planet, but it didn't matter to you. Though, long periods of boring time was not your 'thing'. You groaned and decided to talk to somebody. "Maybe they'll help my boredom situation." you muttered, agitated. The view of your surrounding did help you a bit, but ever since you were a child, you were always fidgety.

"Hello? Anyone alive or entertaining to talk to, on?" muttering into the microphone attached to your helmet. "Let me guess, your bored?" Poe teased sarcastically. "UGH, yes." you answered back happy someone answered. "Aw, little y/n cant handle being a pilot." he snickered. "Shut up, not true, Poe." you snapped back.

"Guys, this isn't the time for arguing! Tie-fighters are up ahead. I guess they saw us coming earlier than expected. Ready your weapons!" Jax yelled through the speaker as a dozen Tie-fighters appeared out of the void ahead. You looked down and readied your weapons, while sweat dripped down your forehead. 'Now I wish I was bored again.' you thought as adrenaline raced through your veins.

Poe flew beside you on the right as Jax maneuvered to the left. Lizzie and Tommy moved up front firing at the approaching enemies. Poe accelerated and shot down one Tie-fighter that was now on Tommy's tail. "Y/n get in front of Lizzie and fire at the Tie-fighter, two o'clock!" Poe barked orders. This wasn't training, it was real. Too real.

You did as told and steered in front of Lizzie. The Fighter was firing at you, luckily it kept missing as you maneuvered quickly, doing a strategy Poe had shown you before. Turning right sharply and flying under, you shot up and the Tie-fighter exploded, debris flew left and right. "Did you see that, Poe?!" you yelled excitedly, yet slightly terrified. "I'm proud of you, y/n. But, right now it would be best to save the praise and make it out first." He replied panting slightly. 'He must be nervous too.'

You made a 'u-turn' and made it beside Jax on the right. Jax had a Tie-fighter on her tail and taking heavy fire. You tried to get behind the fighter, but it was too late. Jax's wing caught fire and she lost control, slamming into one of the 6 left Tie-fighters. Your eyes widened with shock. "NO!" you shrieked and aggressively moved behind the Tie-fighter that just killed your squad member.

You fired out of rage until finally the shots caught the fighter's wings, making him violently blow up. You caught yourself filled with complete anger and tried to calm down. You have heard storied of good pilots who perished by making risky actions, while infuriated from loss of Resistance pilots.

"W-we lost Jax." you spoke hesitantly. You heard sobbing at one end of the lines, "Y-yea, I-I know." Lizzie choked back tears while she spoke. You continued to navigate safely through the mess. You prayed that no more casualties would happened, you prayed for the safety of your squad. No matter what.

Three fighters were left and one of them did not want to go down without a forceful fight. It kept chasing you around the battle area, while you kept trying to avoid showers of fire onto you. "Need a little help here!" you yelled and Poe showed up right beside you. "I got you, don't worry!" Poe responded and flew behind the fighter trying to draw it away from you. But, the fighter was too clever and didn't budge from your tail. You pulled up and around, getting in front of Poe and behind the fighter.

'Silly creature, you know you cannot fight the urge. Your friend, that you care about most, will not make it back. You will join the Dark. No matter what.'

The voice hissed in your ear, you shook your head forcefully and shot at the fighter. It exploded and you flew under the debris, avoiding incoming material. Poe moved beside you and shot at the second Tie-fighter left. It avoided the fire and shot back, missing. "I got this one, y/n. Stay behind me and cover me!" he shouted. "Got it!" you replied doing exactly what you were told. You piloted behind Poe's X-wing, covering him from a distance of five yards.

The other fighter appeared diagonal from Poe. Poe didn't react in time. You yelled and shot at the Fighter diagonal from Poe, but missed. "Y/n I've been flanked!" he yelled and you were scared. Your nerves were affecting the way you shot, missing every time. Poe tried to take out the one in front, but it wouldn't let itself get hit.

Then the one diagonal shot. It hit Poe several times causing his X-wing to blow up. Watching the explosion paralyzed, shock ran through you like fire. "POE!" you wailed, tears stung your eyes as his voice playing through your mind; 'No matter what.' Your cheeks were stained with sorrow as you screamed, firing at both fighters. You shot down one as Lizzie destroyed the other.

You sat there, trying to comprehend what had happened. "P-Poe? Are you there?" you whispered, knowing the answer. Static scratched your ears saying; "Your friend is dead, all because of you."

You racked your brain, telling yourself he was still ok, then it hit you. The voice was right.

'Your friend that you care about most, will not make it back.'