FRAGILE IDENTITY

'SHE' CAME BACK

GALE'S POV

KINABUKASAN…

Naisipan ko mag jogging…ewan ko kung bakit,siguro para mawala yung problema ko…

Jogging lang ako ng jogging… bahala na kung saan ako mapadpad…

Sa pagtakbo ko syempre,pagod na ako dahil ang layo na pala ng natakbo ko…

May nakita akong playground…yung playground na pinuntahan namin ni Asha noong nagsorry ako sakanya…

Pumasok ako at umupo sa isang swing na which is inupuan ni Asha…

I can imagine her happy smiles and bright eyes…

I can laugh when i imagine Asha is being rude and sometimes happy…

And…i remember,when she confessed her true feelings for me…

I missed all of those…
We are happy,and suddenly…we'll end up like this…

She might forget me…i bitterly laugh at the thought

She will not forget me…

Nagiisip isip ako ng may tumawag sa pangalan ko…pero,ineexpect ko na si Asha,pero…mali ako…

"Gale…"

"Jessica…"i said in a small voice

And she approach to hug me while im sitting…

She hugged me tight…
It's like im gonna leave her…
"I missed you!"she confessed

I was shock…
I was speakless…

She's really her…

"Why are you hear?"i asked her

"Aren't you happy?im here for you obviously!cant you see?"she asked happily

"I never expected that you will show your self to me after what you did…"

"Gale…im sorry,im very sorry…i was afraid,i choose to be fragile,but now,we can be together again!we can love each other again!Gale,please…"She almost pleaded infront of me

Mabuti nalang walang ibang tao kundi kami lang…

"Stop this bullshit's and fuck away!i dont need you,no one needs you!just get your ass out of here before i can do a bad thing on you!"im in anger

"Gale,stop being so rude!i know,you still love me!im important to you,right?Gale…say it…say that you still love me…Gale,say it…"jessica is out of her mind!

I closed my eyes an took a deep breath…"…I love…you…"i said

She hugged me,very tight…
Hinayaan ko lang syang yakapin ako…"I knew you still love me!i still love you too…''she claimed

"Yes,i love you…

BEFORE…but now?get lost!i dont have a feelings for you anymore!just fuck off!stop pleading on me,like you're a pathetic loser!shame on you!"i said in anger

I left her dumbfounded,but she spoke again.…i dont care,i dont know her starting from now!she's a pathetic girl who pleaded to be loved again…

"Gale,you've…Changed…alot…"jessica faced me

"People change…so as our feelings…"i said in a serious tone

"So,someone replace me…who is…she?"may namumuong luha sa gilid ng mata nya

"She's out of your business!stop pestering me,i dont need pest on my life!"i yelled

"Gale…just,one more chance?please?im begging you?"and there she is,she's crying

"Stop this bullshit's!do i fucking care?stop this…and im telling you,I.LOVE.HER!you cant do anything to change my feelings for her!damn this!''

She cringed in embarrasment…she definitely be ashamed for what she did!she begged for nothing,she pleaded…

"You just didnt know what my experience bring the crap out of me!you didnt know what pain i've almost feel!you didnt care!you're being selfish!you're being ridiculous!…you didnt know,what pain did i felt on leaving you!i escape from my family just to be with you!and now,this is what i will get?i just to want say sorry,for leaving you…for being fragile as fuck,im so sorry…i never knew how it hurts like this…im so sorry…"she's crying heavily…

"…it's okay for me that you said your sorry personally…but,dont ever expect that i will love you before…i dont want to be stupid anymore…"and i walked out…i dont care kung maligaw sya…ang alam ko malapit sa park na to ang bahay ng tita nya…ay ewan!

Dahil ayoko na tumakbo uli,sumakay nalang ako sa taxi…it's very hassle to walk under the heat of the sun…
I've never dreamed to be toasted alive by myself…

While,naghihintay kame na umusad ang traffic…biglang tumugtog ang kanta ng Silent Santuary…yung Pasensya ka na…

{Hindi mo na mapipilit,wala ng babalikan,sa liwanag mong nangaakit,ayoko ng masaktan…}

{Nakikiusap sayo,patawarin mo nalang ako,patawarin…}

While,listening to the song,i didnt notice,im crying…

{Pasensya ka na at di ko narin madama,kay tagal kitang hinihintay,pasensya ka na ,kaya ko ng mag isa,kalayaan sa kamay ng lumbay…}

Tumingin si kuyang driver sakin…i immediately wipe my tears…baka sabihin nya,nababaliw na ko…
"Oh,ijo?bakit ka umiiyak?"he asked me

"Ahh,wala po…i just remember a thing…"i answered politely

"Naku,wag ka magsinungaling,ijo…mas lalo ka lang masasaktan…sige na,sabihin mo na.kaya kitang bigyan ng payo…"manong said……should i tell him?i want to bring this out of my chest…

"*sigh*yung babaeng mahal ko po,nilalayo ng pamilya nya sakin…her mom doesn't like me for her so as her twin brother…hindi ko na po alam kung anong gagawin ko,nababaliw na ho ata ako,pareho po naming mahal ang isa't isa…pero,she said,i should stop seeing her…but,why would i give up,kung may assurance na?and,yung dati ko pong nililigawan sa London,bumalik sya…sabi nya ho,mahal nya parin ako…pero,binalaan ko na sya na tumigil na sya…hindi ko na po alam ang gagawin…"and i knew,i was crying

"Yang isip mo magulo,yang puso mo,magulo din…sa tingin mo ba,makakapag isip ka kung magulo yang dalawang yan?pero,dapat mong alamin kung bakit magulo at sino bang nangugulo?"wait,ano daw?

Napansin ko,umaandar na pala ang taxi…

"Siguro,takot sya,naguguluhan,nalilito,gusto ng sumuko…maraming syang dahilan at rason…sana isipin mo rin na may pamilya syang dapat nyang intindihin,hindi lang ikaw…ang problema kase,nagiging selfish ka…sa tingin mo ba,kung ipagdadamot mo sya may mangyayari?…wala!ang kailangan mo lang gawin,wag kang sumuko,may pinanghahawakan kayo diba?dun ka kumapit…pero,kung ayaw mo masaktan,wag ka nalang mag mahal…ang tunay na pagmamahal,lagi yang nakakasakit."#hugotSiKoya

"So your saying po na?…"

"Kailangan mong magtiis,kase kung ikaw nahihirapan,mas lalo na sya…dapat mo syang intindihin…kung mahal mo sya,magtitiis ka…hindi ko sinasabing magpakatanga ka dahil sakanya…ang gawin mo lang,ay ang tingin mong mas tama…kung ano ang tinitibok ng puso mo…kumapit ka sa pinanghahawakan nyo,kase kung hindi…malalaglag kayo…possibleng,magkahiwalay kayo…"

Mas…tama?ano ba ang tama?ang magtiis ako o wag na lang?…

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