FRAGILE IDENTITY

SHE CONFESSED TOO

1 week later…

GALE'S POV{sawakas,may point of view na si gwapo!}

Isang linggo simula noong masabi ko na nagugustuhan ko na si Asha…one week na rin syang hindi nagpapakita saken.pagkatapos ng confession kong yun,wala na…nakikita ko sya sa school pero,kapag tatawagin ko sya at lalapitan,umiiwas sya,lumalayo…hindi ko alam kung bakit.tinatanong ko si kate kung bakit hindi ako pinapansin ni Asha,ang sinasagot nya lang,hindi nya alam…
Naguguluhan na ako!ano bang nagawa ko?tungkol ba dun sa pag amin ko sakanya?
But it's not a valid reason!
I can't understand why Asha is like that.

Im here at our classroom,our adviser has something to say…
''Well,dahil ang section one at two ay parehong science oriented class,magiging kagrupo nyo sila.and,sabi ng head kasali ang arts department!magkakaroon kase  ng activity,and kayong three sections ang required sumali…i hope,magkakasundo kayo.''madam legaspi explained

I hope,makagrupo ko si Asha…

May nagtaas ng kamay…si Samantha,the top 2 and the geek one…''when it will be held?''samantha asked politely

''Tomorrow…i expect na mag rereview kayo,there will be some quizes to be held…''

I saw Samantha claps her both hands in excitement,kahit hindi na sya magreview,mananalo na sya jan.

''I heard,Ellaine is ignoring you,am i right?''tanong ni Eros

Sa kamalasan ko,nakatabi ko pa tong kumag na toh!

''Do you even care?as if Asha cares for you…''masungit kong sagot

''I guess,it's not yet the time for her to care for me…huh?loving BOYFRIEND?oh come on,stop dreaming so high…''diniinan talaga nya yung salitang boyfriend eh noh?bitter lang yan!

''Let me remind you,You are nothing to her.Asha dont  need your stupid attitude.and she dont need filthy animal's like you. ''Madiin kong sabi

''Just say those word's,i will make sure,you'll eat all those word's you say…''may pananakot sa boses nya

''Go then.i dont care about you.''

And saktong nag bell na.
I stood up and brought my bag and left that room.i dont care what they will say about me,they just dont understand what am i feeling  right now.

''May problema ka noh?''that voice…i turn my gaze to that voice…but,it's not her

It's Hannah,my classmate,kaya pala wala to dun kanina sa room andito toh!

''You didnt attend class.''sabi ko

''No one cares kung pumapasok ako o hindi,alam ko na ang mga kaganapan,kaya di ko na kailangan pang pumasok.may mga paraan ako.''she explained

''Bakit  ka ba ganyan?rebelde ka ba?''tanong ko

''Hindi noh!pero sabihin na nateng kaunti!''

''Huh?what do you mean?''tanong ko

''Medyo rebelde ako.pasaway,sakit sa ulo,laging napapasabak sa gulo.yan ang buhay ko.kulang nalang irehab ako para bumait daw ako.akalain mo yun?para naman akong nakadrug's diba?''

Kakaiba ang get up nya…naka uniforme sya pero,may itim syang jacket kahit may blazzer's na tapos merong syang mga kuwintas na weird.

''May problema ka?''she asked

''No.nothing…im just thinking about something.something that bother's my mind.''

"Nothing daw?…Babae!babae pinoproblema mo noh?"

"Yeah."maikli kong sagot

"Grabe ka magreply sa mga sinasabi ko!maikli ang mga response mo!grabe sya eh!"hannah

"I dont care…"

"Grabe sya oh!ingles ng ingles!noseblood na me!grabe ka bhoXz kHo"

I didnt understand the last part,maybe alien talk

"Im not an alien…i dont understand your language."

"Grabe sya oh!di ako alien!chaka,jeje talk yun!mag peysbook ka kase!hindi libro-notes-ballpen ang kaharap mo lagi!naiintindihan naman kita eh!pareho tayong section one,pero ako,kahit hindi ako mag aral,nakakapasa paren ako!stack nolidge lang yan!"her english word's are awful

"Dont be such a bad influence,di ako gagaya sayo!i have to maintain to be top 3!"

"Purke top 3 ka at ako top 20?hah!babawi ako!i shall return!"with hand gestures pa yan

"You're crazy."

"And you're ugly!bleh!"how dare she?

"Wala pang nagsasabi na panget ako!''depensa ko

"Ques,ngayon,meron na!"

"Just fuck off,i want to be alone"pagmamakaawa ko

"Magmamakaawa nalang kelang pa mang mura eh noh?  mukha ka lang hito!che!"at tumalon sya sa puno at naglakad palayo

Pero…"paalala lang,kung ayaw mong maagaw ng iba yang babaeng pinoproblema mo,gumawa ka na ng paraan.wag tatanga tanga."at umalis na sya

Pano nga ako makakagawa ng paraan kung di ko naman alam kung bakit nya ako nilalayuan!nababaliw na ako!

''Haaay…''pagbuntong hining ko

''Mommy…i tried to ignore him.ginawa ko yun kahit alam kong masakit iwasan ang kaibigan ko…''that voice,hindi ako pedeng magkamali

"Mom,hindi ko na kasama si Gale…nilalayuan ko na sya.kahit alam kong masakit.…opo,hindi po,sige na mommy,i'll be going…bye mom."

Hindi nya ako pinapansin dahil lang,ayaw ng mom nya?or…may ibang dahilan…

Nakita ko si Asha,palabas na sya ng garden,nanlaki pa ang mga mata nya.

"Gale…"im glad she remember me after she keeps on ignoring me and keep her gaze away

I stood up…"Asha…"and i hugged her

But,she didnt hugged me back

"Asha,why?what's the matter?"tanong ko

"Gale…please,layuan mo muna ako.parang awa mo na."malamig nyang sabi

"Asha…b-bakit?"

"Gale…please!habang hindi pa ako nahuhulog sayo ng tuluyan!"ang she burst out in tears

Does she means…"Gale…layuan mo na ako…b-bago,ako kamunghian ng pamilya ko…please lang…ayaw ko rin na tong puso ko…mahulog na sayo ng tuluyan!"

"What do you mean?i cant understand…"

"GALE NAMAN!NAGUGUSTUHAN NARIN KITA!NAIINTINDIHAN MO BA KO?GALE…IKAW NA ANG TINITIBOK NITO!"and she pointed her left chest which our heart is located

I cant say anything…
I cant speak nor show any shock emotion at all…
i just cant

Naglakad na sya palabas pero pinigilan ko sya…"Hindi na kita nagugustuhan…"sambit ko

Halata naman na nagulat sya kase nag stiff ang katawan nya…
"Kase…gustong gusto na kita…"

I walked out…
I walked out with many unexplained thought's that bother's my mind…