FRAGILE IDENTITY

DRUNKEN BY TEARS

GALE'S POV

Dalawang araw na kong nagkukulong sa kwarto ko,ayokong lumabas,ayokong makakita ng tao ngayon…masyado pang masakit…

Dalawang araw na kong miserable…

Dalawang araw na kong basag…

Dalawang araw na kong malungkot…

Dalawang araw simula ng umalis sya…

Sabihin nyo na,na ang tanga tanga ko…kase,hanggang ngayon,paulit ulit akong nagtetext at tumatawag sakanya…pero,ni isang reply…wala…

Okay lang kung ang ireply nya masakit,basta malaman ko lang na naaalala pa nya ako at alam kong nasa maayos na sitwasyon sya…

Tumayo ako at kinuha ang laptop ko…may nag pop up na message eh…

FROM:Destiny samantha

Hey?…are you alright?
You didnt attend school…
And bali-balita  sa school na,umalis na si Natasha from section two…na which is usap usapang,kinahuhumalingan mo…
Dont worry,Gale…everything will be alright…
And she will come back…
Just trust her…

And the sec.1 misses you already…pasok ka na…

Everything will be alright?
Fuck!i dont think that will happen…

*TOCK~TOCK*

"Gale…come outside…leave that dark room of yours…please,as your mother,im begging you…fix your self…Gale…she still love's you…just trust her…"

And eto nanaman…umiiyak nanaman ako…

Wala na kong pake kong marinig ni Mama o ng Kapitbahay pa namen ang hagulgol ko…basta ang alam ko…nasasaktan ako…nasasaktan ako ng sobra…

"Gale…are you alright?…please,answer me…"mom is knocking the door…i think that's not knocking…she's slamming the door…

Ayoko na…ang lakas ng impact nya sakin…

Kaya eto,sa sobrang lakas…nasasaktan ako…

"IM NOT ALRIGHT!I WILL NEVER BE ALRIGHT!SHE LEAVE ME!SHE LEFT ME BEHIND!…JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!…"i shouted

I just hugged my knees and tremble as i could…

Im…vulnerable…

I heard a steps…i guess,umalis na si Mama…

Bakit nya ba ako iniwan?
May mali ba?sino…ako?
Masyado ba akong clingy?
Totoo ba ang mga sinabi nya?
Hindi nya ba talaga ako mahal?

Ang daming tanong sa isip ko…na wala namang sagot…

Ayoko mang isipin,pero…hindi maiwasan…

I hear my phone rang…

Someones calling…

I grab it immediately…
And hoping that she is the who calls…

But,my hope vanished…
she…is not the one who calls…

CALLING:
JASMINE KATE

"Hello…"bungad ko

"Pinsan…*sniff*"is she crying?

"Are you crying?…"

"She leave…she leave without any words…"umiiyak na talaga sya