Original title: light strewn across my neck just make them into a noose and light them up.
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"It's just- I think I'm sinking, Aleks."
"It's a pain in my chest, and no words can describe it because it's like there's nothing in there, but I'm still being weighted down. I get filled with sadness for no reason, and being with you feels so much better, and I just- I think... I think I love you, Aleks."
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He was panting when he woke up, eyes fluttering closed as he took deep breaths to calm his speeding heart.
They say to never put grease down the drain. You wait for it to solidify and throw it in the trash, for if you wash it down the drain, it will build up and clog, making it so nothing can pass.
Like grease down a drain, James let his words build up just like Aleks had those weeks before. He knew how Aleks felt but something kept him from speaking it, something that screamed at him every time he opened his mouth.
Weeks were gone, Aleks sometimes missing work, but he would come back in looking better, happier. James could tell he was working on himself, and for some reason he felt unneeded. When everyone else seems to have figured it out, you can't help but wonder why you're late to the party, and why while they continue to reach for goals, you stay up late trying to create something to aim for.
So James did that.
He set the goal to get better.
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Fanfic"Sometimes, I just want to... stop breathing." Aleks gave a sharp, pitiful laugh with his words, shaking his head. "You're drunk." "No, I'm not," he croaked, lips trembling. Silence fell between them. "But I really wish I was." __________ Note: dr...
