Sonder

| 02 | - Tell Me Lies

Tell me that you love me, just so I can hear it

Say that you need me, make me believe it

Hold me close in your arms, say you'll never let go
Say that I'm your all in all, the only one you want
Say you don't fuck with nobody else, and I'm the only one

Say you'll never ever hurt me, and you put this on your son

Promise me you'll never cheat and you will always be 1 hunned
Say you different from the rest baby
Tell me lies , Tell me lies
Make it all sound good

He damn sure knows how to bring emotions out of no one has ever. Here I was, sitting here with a bottle of wine like some fucking old lady, and listening to Ann Marie. I don't know what it was that kept making me come back to him. Kept making me miss him. Whatever it is, it needs to stop. But sadly I know that shit ain't happening.

Say you don't wanna lose me, you just can't afford
Say you would do anything for me cause you feel I deserve it

Tell me you'll never treat me like the guys in my past

Say that you can guarantee that we're gonna last
Say how I'm the only girl you've ever felt this way about

Say you ain't never had these feelings for somebody else

Then tell me how much I'm different, there's no one like me out here

Tell me what I wanna hear

He is my first love. I gave that man my all. But it always seems as if I wasn't good enough. He made me feel so damn special. Like I was the most beautiful girl in the world. Like my past didnt matter. At this point, I was tipsy and wanted to give him a piece of my mind. I grabbed up my keys and phone and made my way in the car.

{ 1/4/06 - 2:32 pm }

"Ya know, I neva woulda realized dat you were goin through stuff like me." My head turned his direction as I stopped picking flowers, and sat on the green bench with him.

"Why you say that? Everybody goes through things. You just can't tell with most people."

"Yeah, but. You look so perfect. Like ya always been pampered an' well tooken ca'e of. You always got da' newest shoes or clothes on."

"That stuff means nothing. Momma always told me that we gotta fake it till we make it. So thats what we been doin."

"But you gotta family. I'an neva had one'a those." I gave him a big hug and rubbed his back.

"Having a family isn't always a good thing." I stood up and began dusting off my pretty pink dress. "Plus, you got me." I gave him a kiss on the cheek, and another hug before running off before Momma and Pops can notice I was gone.

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{ Present Time }

I was really starting to regret coming over here. For one it was 4 in the morning, and for two my dumbass came out in this chilly ass weather with no jacket or nothing. Before I could process what I was doing, I started beating on the door. I don't know where the hell these balls came from, but half of me was scared shitless and the other half didn't give a fuck.