Sonder

| 16 | - Pigment

{ 6/21/17 - 11: 00 pm }

I tried calling his phone, yet I was once again met with an automated message. This has been going on all day. Our daughter, Kyari Rose, has yet to meet two months and he is already starting his foolish antics. Rose's soft whimpers turned into high pitched screams in the matter of seconds, and as quick as I could while being beyond tired, I made it to her with hopes to console.

{ 3/1/16 - 10: 32 pm }

"You've been distant." Brandon hasn't been his normal self lately. Well atleast, be the Brandon that I knew- the one that loved me endlessly and showed it whenever he could. Something, or someone, has taken my spot.

"I haven't been meaning to."

"But you have been, so tell me what's up."

"Brielle, I love you. I swear I do, I just-" That slight pause caused my heart rate to speed, my mouth to grow dry, my hands to shake, and butterflies to flutter. "I can't do this anymore."

And that was all. He placed a soft, lingering kiss on my forehead then one to my stomach and left out.

{ 6/22/17 - 12: 05 am }

Finally getting her to rest, my glass of red wine rest in my left hand, and a blunt in my right. The cold air blew as I sat on a chair out on the patio. Seeing the stars twinkle reminded me of the twinkle in my eye, the twinkle only he could give me.

I only had one fear: Brandon giving the love he once gave to me, to some one else.

But just when you think you have forever he has you lost in your emotions
And you hate feeling so alone and you're sinking because you know
You shouldn't have stayed until the morning
It wasn't worth all of the heartache
It wasn't worth all of the pleasure
Because you once were a diamond, he made you feel like buried treasure I guess

Nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts forever baby

Nothing lasts forever

The lyrics to Pigment by H.E.R spilled through my Beats Pill like the direct key to what my heart was feeling. The pain panging in my chest, was something I could never wish on anyone else. The man I thought I would marry, is possibly inlove with someone else. Someone has caught his attention greatly enough to take my spot. To replace me.

{ 7/6/12 - 12: 05 am }

"Could you promise me we will stick through this together, forever?" My brown doe eyes stared into his as those words escaped my lips and some Jimi Hendrix played through his speaker.

"I can't make promises, but I will assure you that I am in it as long as I will be allowed to." Even though he didn't give me the answer I wanted, those words assured me, allowing me to sleep through the night.

{ 4/29/08 - 10:35 am }

"Happy Birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Brandon, Happy birthday to you." I sung the tune softly as I walked to the bedside. He'd awakened a few seconds ago, and I had this whole day planned out for him. A strings to a small party bag were entangled between my fingers withholding a gift I knew he would love.

Brandon's eyes squinted as he glanced down at the bag, yet the smile on his face never faltered. I handed him the bag, and he took it cautiously. Even though I knew he would love it, my nerves were shot through the roof as he opened the black box. Inside, a custom gold IPod sat.