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Chapter 56.

Zayn's P.O.V:

Oh No.

I look at Lexie warily and she has an unreadable expression

Everything about her is unreadable right now.

"and I am sensing that is not a good thing is it?" Waliyha asked cautiously, probably because she felt the tension suddenly build up. 

After a long period of silence, Waliyha finally spoke up

"and I'll take that as a yes"

No shit.

Lexie cleared her throat, silently telling me to say something. "uh no, yeah okay we'll be right down"

I let out a long sigh and scratched the back of my neck "I didn't-" 

but of course Lexie just had to cut me off "I know you didn't" 

Her words startled me, making me snap my head to look at her "what?" 

"I know you didn't mean for her to come" she confirmed my assumption and she let out a long sigh "but what are we to do? let's just go" 

She smiled weakly but I knew she wasn't okay with this, so letting her cool down I nodded and gestured her to exit the room first. "Shit" I mumble to myself before following Lexie into the hallway

As we turn right, leading us into the living room, there I saw Izzie sitting comfortably on the sofa while talking to my mother like they normally would. Something stirs inside me and it makes me uneasy. 

"Zayn, there you are look who stopped by" My mother greeted, making Izzie's head whip towards my direction and I can't read her expression, then she furrows her eye brows as her eyes set on the figure beside me, Lexie.

"uh yeah, you know what me and Lex are just going to go for a short ride" I make up an excuse just to get Lexie out of the house, I swear you could fucking cut the tension with a knife. 

"what?" My mother asked and I shifted my weight on my other foot "uh yeah mom" Waliyha butted  in and I whip my head to look at her

"yeah, I asked them to buy like a ton of ice cream" Waliyha shrugged like it was the truth and I mentally thanked her "yeah mum" I agreed and looked at Lexie and I could tell that she was trying to piece things together. 

"Wal, we only went grocery shopping yesterday, why didn't you say anything?" Mum asked Waliyha and Waliyha looked like she was hit by a bus

okay then

"Mum honestly we don't mind, I've been meaning to show Lexie around anyway" I shrugged, helping my sister out. 

"okay if you say so sweet heart" My mum smiled and looked at Lexie, causing me to look at Lexie, her eyes then widened and stood straight "uh yeah it's no problem at all Mrs. Malik I've been eager to see the neighborhood anyway" 

"please call me Trisha" My mum objected and nodded "okay you  two go ahead then oh and have fun!" 

I grabbed Lexie's hand before kissing my mum on the cheek "thanks mum" I glance over at Izzie who was staring at Lexie and I's locked fingers 

Please don't make this more awkward than it already is.

I continue walking until we reach outside and she retracts from my touch "Lexie" I sigh out of frustration "just quit being stubborn yeah?" 

"I'm not" she objected "then tell me what the fuck is wrong with you?" I snapped and she stopped moving and frowned 

"why the hell are you so mad?" 

"because you are frustrating and you're making everything much more difficult" I say as I stride over to my driver's seat before opening the car door "well aren't you going to get in?" I cock my eye brow 

"you are unbelievable" she shook her head before stomping towards the car and getting inside. 

"I'm unbelievable" I scoff before turning on the car "you know what"

"what?" I looked at her as she slipped on her seat belt before backing out of the drive way "you're only like this because you saw her" 

"No I am not" I shake my head as I grip unto the steering wheel "oh really? why did you get all snippy all of a sudden?" she huffed

"because you're being unreasonable!" I raise my voice a bit before pulling the car over and resting my head on the steering wheel "you're being unreasonable" I repeat, this time much more softer. 

"just tell me what's wrong" I breath out before turning my head to look at her, only to see that she had pursed lips "Lexie" I call out and she sighs in defeat

fucking finally

"okay fine I'll admit it, seeing Izzie stirred up some emotions but that doesn't matter" I confess quietly and I feel Lexie shift in her seat "is that what you want to hear?" 

"Look Lexie, I don't want to make you uncomfortable- fuck that's the last thing I want so if you want, we can go home" I offer, hoping to salvage whatever time alone we have left. 

"It sucks okay?" she starts "It just sucks, because I'm ugh I don't know it just seems as though you hate the fact that I'm your student and I get that it's your family and all and as for Izzie, she sucks because she's perfect for you and she- you and her just have a whole lot of history and I can't compete with that and honestly sometimes I feel like you think you made the wrong choice that night" 

"that's ridiculous" I scoff but then think about her words and feel bad. "oh really? can you honestly tell me there haven't been times where you think what the fuck if" she retaliated 

"Lexie just drop it" I sigh and look at her before driving again. 

In my peripheral view I see her looking outside her window, deep in thought. I shake my head and take a deep breath before taking her hand, and intertwining it with mine "don't ever let shit thoughts cross your mind Lex, it's you" I try to reassure her and she squeezes my hand lightly before letting go

And by doing so she silently said that we're okay, we're going to be okay. 

we're going to be okay.

Author's note:

okay kill me if you must, but this is only a teaser of what is to come babies, I'm back for good and I promise to update and extra long chapter next because I owe you guys so much

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so I have  a lot to tell you guys like seriously I gained and ended a relationship in a span of 2 months and it basically went down in flames, practically exploded leaving me and her in pieces (yes I am bisexual lol) but long story short it was one of those spontaneous, fragile, to die for relationships and I can truly say that I understand Taylor Swift's out of the woods song much clearer now because I can relate so much to what she felt while me and ____ were  together but yeah

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