Numbers z.m

Chapter 68.

Lexie's P.O.V:

Monday. 

It's Monday, marking a week before graduation. 

7 days. 

I have 7 days left of school and Zayn still doesn't know of my plans, and I can't find the courage in me to tell him. 

'yeah because you're being too selfish' the other part of me spoke. 

'you know it's hard' I retaliated 

'yeah, but he loves you and you love him. trust the process.' it snickered. 

'there are too many questions like:' 

Would he do long distance? 

would he want to come with me? 

would he constantly be paranoid since I'm with Harry? 

Would he look for someone else?

would he actually break up with me? 

and those are only few of the many questions that run through my head. 

"Well" Harry cleared his throat, pulling me out of my frantic thoughts. "yeah?" I asked, though I still wasn't all there. 

"consider us, all set and ready" he smiled, his dimples showing. "finally" I sigh looking at my envelope of completed paper work. 

Harry yawned then stood up before ruffling his hair. "I have to go to my dorm, Lex. I'm pretty stumped" he said, exhausted. I nodded and he smiled before leaning down to kiss my forehead. 

"waiting for mystery man?" he joked and I shook my head 'no' and he just nodded like he believed me before walking off and going up to his room.

I rummage my bag for my phone and there I saw Zayn walking around campus. He met my gaze and smiled, he then took his own phone and not a few moments later my phone rang. 

I answer the phone and he continued walking, slowly. "hey baby" he murmured and I felt my heart swell. 

"hey" 

"so, I'm off to my flat, meet me there?" he asked and I bit my lip while smiling "don't" he ordered and I released my bottom lip. 

"yeah, I'll be right behind you" I assured and he sent a wink my way. "okay love see you" and he turned off his phone then went straight to his car to drive off. 

I chewed on my bottom lip as I watched him disappear onto the road. 

I sighed before fixing my papers. 

I wish I could've told him sooner, but you can't take back lost time. 

In all honesty there were a lot of times I could've told him, but everything with Zayn is so good and I didn't want it to end, I was scared you see. 

Scared of the unknown, scared of what could happen, scared to lose him. 

I have to tell him tonight. 

I've waited long enough. 

Arriving at my decision I groan inwardly before hopping into my car, I made my way to a really good Chinese restaurant to grab take away for him since he was craving Chinese food since last week. 

I focused on the dim street lights that were scattered along the road before the house came into my view. My heart beat picked up as I registered the fact that I would be breaking my boyfriend's hearts in a few minutes. 

I parked the car, got hold of the bags and made my way to the door. I rang the door bell and he opened the door. 

damn