Numbers z.m

Chapter 69.

Lexie's P.O.V:

That night I woke up the next day, Zayn still hasn't come home. It was his apartment so I was busting my ass off thinking of where he could have gone. 

It's been 4 days since I've heard from him and Jasmine said he went to school the day after our fight to grab some papers at the records office while Ms. B asked him why he was asking for a leave. 

for 4 nights I've been staying at his place and Jasmine said I looked horrible. 

well yeah if you've been stressing about your boyfriend it isn't impossible to look like you haven't slept in months. 

'it was all your fault' the other side of my brain snickered and I didn't even try to calm my thoughts down. 

it was all my fault. 

"still no word?" Jasmine whispered as we practiced walking down the isle for the march. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and sighed in defeat. "None" 

Jasmine looked at me sympathetically and I gave her a small smile. "that's what I get for dropping a bomb that big on him at the last minute." 

Our conversation was interrupted when someone tapped the mic causing an irritating sound to echo through the auditorium. "Students" Our dean called out. "this is the end of practice, you may now all go. Tomorrow you are expected to be here by 8 am and the ceremony will start at 9:30 am " 

On command we did what we were told. I grabbed my bags and walked along side Jasmine. "Lex, we miss you" she sighed. "you haven't gone home in 4 days and Harry says you've been distant" 

"I'm sorry Jas, I'm just so anxious about Zayn" I answered and she nodded "I understand but babe time for you to come home" she said and nudged her head to the side and there stood harry warily walking towards me. 

In all honesty I haven't been avoiding him, well not on purpose. I guess in my mind distance from Harry would make things slightly better with Zayn and I. 

"Hey" he rasped, his voice low and his dimples popping out just the slightest bit. "hi haz" I answered and he sighed " thank god" 

"I thought you were mad" her clarified and I shook my head "I'm not, I just have a lot of things on my plate" He smiled and nodded. "seems like it honestly" 

he then hugged me and I was taken back by the random gesture "I hope you're okay, what ever might be happening will pass and all will be alright with time love" he then stood up straight and ruffled my hair

"I have to go, see you tomorrow Lex" 

I watched harry disappear into the building and I sigh before walking towards my car to drive back to Zayn's house, hoping that he'll finally be there. 

I pass by the same old street with the same old houses and once his house came to my view, it's lights were on.When I registered the thought that someone was inside the house, I stepped on the gas and parked my car, practically running towards the door. 

I slid in the keys to turn it, opening the door, revealing Zayn sitting on the couch with my shirt in his hands. 

finally.

I carefully closed the door behind me and sat beside him. "hey" I managed to speak up. 

His eyes were brimmed with tears and I can't help but feel my heart sink. "Zayn-" I was about to speak when he faced me. "I'm sorry" 

sorry? wait what

There was a weight on his words, the type of feeling you get when you know you're going to get bad news. He then kneeled in front of me and I was beyond taken back by his actions. "Lex I'm sorry" he repeated over and over again.