Suicide ↠ Kellic

Kellin

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future me- this part alone has 2k now im sh00k (2019)

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"Vic," I sighed, seeing him sat at the breakfast table for the first time in a few days, "thank god your back."

I felt around under the table, reaching for his hand.

He smiled softly, yet behind his eyes was an anxious look. Curiously, I gave him a look as if to say "you okay?" in which he nodded as a response.

"Vic!"

"Ruby!"

Ruby pounced on Vic, grasping him in a tight embrace

"I've missed you so much!"

"I've missed you too, Rubes," he smiled genuinely at her, to which she came back with a toothy grin.

"You can never, ever leave me again," the red head said.

"I won't, the only time I'll leave you now is when I have to have extra therapy," he said, "and you have to come to the gardens with me, I'm not allowed alone."

"I love the gardens!"

"Should we go for a walk?" Vic asked Ruby, they truly were like brother and sister.

Ruby nodded enthusiastically, dragging Vic from the table and towards the doors.

I sighed and stood up, not bothering to wait for Jaime and Tony, and headed out of the canteen, however, before I could leave, I was stopped.

"Kellin," a man I didn't recognise greeted me with an abrupt nod.

"Yes?"

"Follow me, I'm doctor Carr, I'm the head of this institute, I'd like to have a quick word."

Instead of responding, I followed him down a hallway I'd never been in. After a minute more of walking, we stopped at a wooden door that had the name 'Carr' written across it, which he opened and gave me a view of his office.

Two brown leather sofas, a desk with a spinny chair on one side and a plain, 4 legged chair on the other. I took a seat on the plain one whilst he occupied the desk chair.

"So, Kellin," he began, "I've heard about your problem."

"Problem?"

"Yes," he frowned, "you told your group session leader."

"I honestly don't recall telling her my problem."

"So your not homosexual?"

What. The. Fuck.

"Excuse me?" I frowned, shocked.

"So you are gay?"

"What does it matter if I'm gay or not, what matters is why it's a problem?" I scoffed. He had no right to say that.

"Well, Gay is a sin," he shrugged, as if t was obvious, "but that's okay, we can help you through it."

"There is no helping someone thought it, gay is gay, it's not a choice it's lifestyle."

"Well there has to be, your manipulating your position as human being, gay isn't real, it's something teenagers make up for attention."

"That's enough!" I slammed my hands down on his desk, by this point I was furious, "I am gay. I do like boys. Now I suggest you shut the fuck up before I fuck your dad."

Dr. Carr just laughed, throwing his head back.

"It's all attention, you just can't see it right now," he chuckled.

I scowled at him, standing up and storming out of the room. He had zero rights to say something like that. Absolute fucking piss take.

I walked out of his office and speed walked down the hallway, and when I though I was far away enough I slid down the wall, releasing a groan.

What is so bad about being gay?

How come girls are allowed to like boys but boys aren't allowed to like boys?

You'd think that in 2016 people would be over it, if gay is so bad, why would 'God' make me gay?

It's all fucking bullshit.

I let out a string of curse words before I stood up and paced down the corridor, resuming my previous task to return to my room, without being stopped by a homophobic ass hole.

I threw my self onto my bed, hating myself for being gay.

To be honest I just want to cuddle Vic, but since he's gotten back he seems to just avoid me, spending time with Ruby or Tony and Jaime. I feel like I've done something but I don't know what I've done.

What could I have done, he's been in solitary for a week?