Purple Highlighter! (; A Lirry Fanfic :D

31- My Everything.

I fell asleep finally at about four this morning. Harry never replied to the picture of the tattoo. Zayn had taken that picture for me.

When I woke up, it was 5:42. I only slept for an hour and forty-five minutes. Right now it was like eight. I grabbed my phone. I had to keep myself distracted.

Ring.

Ring.

Ring.

"Hey Li." Niall's voice said groggily.

"Ni, I'm really sorry about the Harry thing." I said back to him.

"It's okay. He fell asleep in his floor, hugging his phone. Louis picked the lock. He didn't do anything stupid but he had a few things scattered across his floor."

"Good..." I whispered, tears welling in my eyes.

"Why'd you call though?" He asked me softly. "Shh, Lou go back to sleep." He whispered. I heard a small sigh before it was quiet again.

"I-I need a distraction.. You're the only one who knows..." I trailed off.

"You didn't again did you?" He asked scared.

"No but I want to. I need to be distracted. I've been up since 5:45 this morning an I fell asleep at 4. Zayden isn't up yet. I want to go back but I'm here for a week."

"You can always say something happened and you need to come back right away."

"I don't want to do that to Zayden though. Zayn and I met up last night though."

"That's good. I think Harry's up. Do you want to talk to him?" I looked over at the bathroom.

"Yeah." Was my reply. There was shuffling and talking before eventually, my favourite voice in the world answered.

"Hello?" He sounded amazing when he wakes up. Then again, he always sounds amazing.

"Hi." I whispered, watching as Zayden walked into the bathroom, shutting the door.

"What're you doing?" He asked, sounding a little upset.

"Just laying here. Keeping myself distracted. Talking to my hopefully still boyfriend. You?" I said biting my lip at the last part.

"I'm standing in the hallway. Talking to you." I felt the urge become bigger when he didn't say anything about being my boyfriend still.

"T-That's cool." I stuttered. Zayden walked out and smiled tiredly at me. I nodded at him.

"Yeah. How are you?" He said keeping the conversation going.

"I-I'm not so good. And you?" I found myself sitting up and staring at the razor on the far wall.

"I've been better Liam. I've been a lot better." He said, sounding extremely upset. My heart cracked even more and the urge grew.

"C-Ca-can I talk t-to N-Niall again...?" I said almost crying now.

"What's wrong Li?" Harry asked me worried.

"D-Do you l-love me?" I asked gripping the side of the bed. Zayden walked in and sat down next to me. He mouthed 'What's wrong?' I held up my finger for a few seconds.

"Of course I do. I'm upset about the whole cheating thing though." I whimpered.

"I'm s-sorry!" I called out.

"I know Li. I know." He said in a hushed tone.

I stood up and started walking toward the bathroom. "I have to go. I love you. Bye." I hung up before he could reply and I pretty much ran towards the razor.

"Liam!" Zayden gasped just as I started pressing it down to my skin. I quickly swiped it across just as he snatched the razor out of my hand, threw it across the room and pulled me close to his body. "You can't do that."

"Why can't I?" I asked him slightly confused.

"Because, I talked to Zayn and he said you told Harry you cheated on him. I know it's hard for him because I've been cheated on as well but you can't do that to yourself."

"I'm sorry Zayden... I'm so sorry..."


Harry's POV.

I laid in bed with my eyes closed. A dreamworld in my mind was perfect. I kind of wish it would be true but I know it'll never happen.

Niall has been freaking out all day because Liam hung up on me. I don't know why he's so scared.

"HAZZA!" Louis yelled. I opened my eyes and stood up before walking into the living room. Liam was on the big television, aka Skype, and his face looked so upset.

"Please tell me you didn't Liam. I swear to god..." Niall pleaded.

"I did just a faint one. I'm sorry Ni. I couldn't keep myself distracted long enough." He whispered upset. Niall stood up and turned around.

"I'll be back." He said before running out of the room. I saw Liam's eyes fill with tears.

"Why do I have to fuck up so much!" He pretty much yelled. Louis spoke up. Liam didn't know I was there yet.

"You don't. Niall, you know how sensitive he is especially when he knows you've.. Hurt yourself. He may say I'm his life but you're really his life. He will always worry about you. Don't say you're a fuck up okay? I want you to talk to someone okay?" Louis looked over at me and motioned me to come over. I walked over and sat down on the couch.

"Harry." Liam whispered. I managed a shy smile.

"Hi Liam." I said softly.

"How are you doing?" He asked me casually.

"I'm pretty good. Just been dreaming." I laughed, he laughed slightly.

"I'm really sorry Harry." He said in all seriousness. "Zayden, he is gone right now. He went to go apologise to his boyfriend. I'm really really sorry." He said, eyes watering. Louis had gotten up and went to where Niall was in the kitchen.

"It's okay Liam. I'm sorry." I said, now would probably be the right time right?

"You don't have to be sorry."

"I do... I Uhm.. I er..." I lifted up my shirt and pulled my boxers down slightly and showed him the large cut across my hip bone. He was silent.

"Was that because of me?" He asked, scared. I hesitated but nodded. I heard a choked sob and my head snapped towards the TV where Liam had his mouth covered by his hand and tears running down his face. "I'm so so so sorry." He cried.

"Don't be okay..? It was my doings."

"I caused it though! I'm so stupid! I shouldn't have ch-"

"Liam."

"I was stupid!"

"Li, listen to me. I just have to say something."

"W-What?"

"I'm sorry, Liam. I probably overreacted. I'm sorry. I am scared of losing you again. All I wanna say is..." I trailed off, taking a deep breath.

"What?" He asked curiously with a sniffle.

"You are my world. My fantasy world. My dreamworld. My Everything."