Rapid Reactions (A Mindless Behavior Story)

Blessed...

Previously: Aimee realises she doesn’t want to live anymore after finding out that Khalil is out of jail and passes out in the sea she was swimming in, but Princeton is there and tries to save her but doesn’t think he can make it because they were too far into the water and the waves were too rough, he didn’t believe he had the strength. Also Holy apologises to (yn) about her outbursts and they have a heart to heart which allows her to realise the truth about Holy’s deceptions…  

*(YN)’S POV*

I couldn’t believe what was happening, everyone I knew was going through a hardship they didn’t deserve, I didn’t understand why God would do this to people, Holy’s story had me in tears and I didn’t even know her. Roc did all he could to try and get me to talk to him about it but I wasn’t the best communicator when it came to disheartening occasions.

 Roc: will you at least look at me; I don’t like seeing you like this

U: I don’t understand anything in my life, I don’t want to know anything anymore I don’t want to know about how innocent people have been used anymore it’s just not fair!

Roc: what? I’m so confused, (yn) talk to me

U: I hate guys! Why do they do this to innocent souls, why do they take advantage of vulnerable people?!

Roc: (YN), I don’t take advantage of you, it’s not all guys that do this to girls… I mean I don’t even know why I’m telling you this, don’t keep me in the dark about you if you want to be with me

U: don’t threaten me! –

Roc: I’m not... I would never-

U: why does God want me to witness all this bullshit?

Roc: maybe it’s because you’re a caring person? You would do anything for anyone and you don’t care the cost because your heart is so full. You love people and never judge them no matter the hardships or the shit they’ve been through; you shrug off their bad side and help them enhance their good side. Look at what you did with Holy, you somehow calmed her down and put her in the right state of mind... Well for a while-

U: but that’s it you see! I am always the bearer of bad news! I’m sick of being the one people hate because I’m the one that makes them see sense

Roc: how can you be sick of helping people remember who they are? How can you be crying about this when you’re the person who helps people no matter what… you’re not cursed by god, he has made you earth’s angel… to help others see the light!

I was too traumatised to even acknowledge half of all the sweet things he had just said to me, I was crying with my face in my hands and my body in his arms, he was stroking my hair whilst I cried and waited until I was calmer to talk to me.

U: I’ve brought so much shit in your life

Roc: no you haven’t… want to be able to help you through whatever; you can’t do this on your own…

U: I have for so long now; I’ve been on my own for so long I have no idea how to be with people… that why I wanted to take things slow

Roc: wanted?

U: … roc you can’t have a person like this in your life…we can’t-

Roc: no! (Yn) shut up, I can have you in my life because I will!

U: you don’t know what you’re dealing with

Roc: I don’t care… (Yn) I love you.

 Couldn’t believe my ears, I wasn’t expecting that… I looked him in the eyes, no one had ever said that to me… my mother never, my mother didn’t even particularly like me, Aimee had but that was a different type of love, Rocroyal genuinely loved me I could see it in his eyes. And I loved him too but I wasn’t ready to admit that yet.