Swan Song (A Cody Carson Fanfiction)(Completed)

Swan Song - Chapter 9

My eyes brim with tears as I'm left in my room, on my bed, knees clung to my chest. Today is the day Cody leaves for college and I don't want him to go. Why can't he just stay? Just go to college somewhere near here and not all away across the country. He says we'll talk everyday whenever he'll get the chance but with college and his band, I highly doubt he'll make room for me. I'll have no one to hang out with anymore, I'll be all alone. He's packing his things in the car right now, I said I needed to go do something in my room and I would be out in a minute. I should get out and say good bye before he sees the mess I am.

Before I can gather myself up, the door opens slightly, and Cody's head pops out from the side. A sigh leaves my lips as I motion him to come in. Just my luck.

He closes the door behind him as he enters.

"Hey kid, I'm going to leave in ten minutes and I don't want to leave without a goodbye from you."

I nod as I wipe the brim of my eyes, sniffing back tears so I don't look awful.

"Yeah, I'll be out in a few, I just need time I guess."

He nods, sitting on the bed with me, wrapping an arm around me as he pulls me close.

"Hey, hey, don't cry Alice, I won't be gone forever. I'll come back and we'll hang out like we usually do."

I scoff, tucking hair behind my ear as I look away.

"Until you leave again. Plus what about your band, you're obviously going to get big so where will I be in all of this?"

He lets out a long sigh, filling the room with silence as I oddly enough rest my head on his shoulder.

"I just, I just don't want to be forgotten. I just don't want you to leave."

He rests his head on mine and I turn bright red as he does so. He then places his warm soft lips on the top of my head, my head catching a feel of his lip ring, my face turning into a cherry at this point.

"You won't be forgotten Alice, I promise. And plus I don't want to go either but that's how it is."

I nod, pushing my glasses up as he lets go of me, hopping up from my bed and motioning me to follow as he opens the door.

Out of impulse, I grab his wrist, my tiny hand barely gripping it entirely.  I bite my lip as he looks at me with confusion.

"This isn't goodbye for forever right?"

He smiles, his lip ring tilting slightly at the action. I swear his smile could end wars, melt hearts and give butterflies to anyone. It's doing the same to me right now. He brings me into a big hug, his arms wrapping around my perfectly like a blanket as I smile into his chest.

"No it isn't, I can promise you that."

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My sobs are muffled by the pillow that is being pressed against my face as I lay down. That was the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened in my entire life. The way everyone's eyes locked onto me, judging me, it was truly awful. They looked at me with hatred and disgust when Cody told them I said I hated him. They don't even fucking know what happened, what I went through in order to feel that way towards him. I can't believe that they have the guts to look at me that way before they even know the whole story. They're the disgusting ones.

Now, there's no Cody to come to my side, to promise me things will be alright, to wrap his arms around me and say he'll be here for me because he's the one who caused this hurt. The way he looked at me, with his eyes fuming with anger and other emotions that I didn't know people could have. The way he sang that song directly to me was stomach turning and heart stopping at the same time. I was caught in awe by his movements but yet was still by fear at them at the same time. I just can't believe he did that, in front of everyone, he had some fucking nerve.