You don't even bother anymore.
You don't even try.
You left me alone, I'm on my own.
You left me. I was all alone, no one, nothing.
Tell me where we went wrong.
Where did my best friend go?
No, this can't be, how, I just saw him yesterday. This has to be a mistake, must have dialed the wrong number. Yeah that's it; she must have messed up, it happens, like she said it was her first time doing this. I'll get a call back saying it wasn't meant for me so no need to worry.
Genius, it wasn't a mistake. He's gone.
My eyes stretch wide, a lump gets caught in my throat and everything around me seems to be nonexistent. I just snapped myself back into reality and I really don't like it. This isn't happening, not today. Why is this happening today?
I'm in such a daze I hardly notice Cody try to shake me back into life. His words are muffled and his features are blurry, like I was standing near an explosion.
My body is getting rocked back in forth by him, his face spilling with concern and I'm too out of it to actually say or do anything.
Within a second, my hearing is back, I can see everything clearly and my stomach feels like it's in my throat.
"Oh Jesus Alice your back! You weren't responding for a while."
Instead of nodding or giving an answer, I bolt to the bathroom my throat burning with acid as I'm about to throw up from shock.
I stumble through, bumping into everything before I get to the bathroom. I open the door and collapse in, my hands shaking as I open the toilet and throw up.
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I hear Cody's footsteps run in and he kneels down next to me, holding my hair and rubbing my back. Knowing nothing more will come out, I move away from the toilet, putting my back against the wall with Cody right next to me.
Tears burn my eyes and I bust out into a complete sob.
"Why him? Why today?"
All Cody can do is hold me in his arms and whisper the same words over and over again. 'It'll be alright,' 'it's ok.'
I muffle my cries in his chest, my small hands clutching his damp shirt as I bring my legs close. My throat is closing and my eyes are burning as tears escape them like a waterfall.
Would you look at that, your thoughts came true.
I shake my head, trying to get the voice inside to shut up. Not now, please just not now.
If not now, then when? Face it; you're all alone now your worse fear is now true.
My words are broken up by gasps of air, my sobs making it hard to even understand me.
"I don't want-to-be alone."
Cody places a kiss on the top of my head, his hand lightly stroking my hair as to help me calm down.
"You won't be alone. I'm here."
After a while of just crying and being held, I've finally run out of all the tears in my body. As of right now, I'm sitting on the couch, eyes blood shot and staring into nothing. We both haven't said anything in hours and I don't think I'm going to sleep anytime soon.
