Swan Song (A Cody Carson Fanfiction)(Completed)

Swan Song - Chapter 27

Sorry it's been a while a lot of things have been happening over the course of writing this chapter.

I went to six flags Thursday and on Friday, the 19th i went to see ATL, ADTR and Blink! My sister got it for me as a birthday present which was the day after! So i'm now 15. I went with my best friend and we had the greatest time. First song Lost in Stereo Jack came off the stage, walked up to our seats and gave her a hug, his guitar pic and she got a picture! I was so happy for her. WE both had a great time and i'm proud to be the person to talk her to her first ATL concert. CaliMuratore

I didn't have any pictures to go with this chapter nor did I have music so here's the picture of my best friend with Jack!

I wanna go back lol. But with all of that aside i hope you enjoy this chapter!

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Oh God I did that that was a thing I just did. Is this really happening? I initiated a kiss with Cody Charles Carson. He didn't kiss me, I kissed him. I'm kissing him. Oh, my god.

My mind is racing, screaming at me for being so foolish for what I'm doing but other voices telling me I did the right thing.

Shivers run through my body, the hair on the back of my neck stands on end and my arms and legs are covered in goosebumps.

I really don't know what I'm doing; this is the first time I've kissed someone. Well the first time I consensually kissed someone. The other times Cody...well you already know.

I get a warm feeling within my chest, a fuzzy feeling and it washes over everything. Fear, anxiety, it's all gone and the only thing that matter is this moment right here. This feeling is different, not like the slight loving jabs I would get. It's a nice feeling, like my heart and emotions are being wrapped in a warm blanket. It's not what I think it is, right?

All in all, this feels right, almost as if I should have done this a while ago. I guess I did let everything get in the way. I just didn't want him to hurt me, it took everything I had in me to forgive him and just to forget and let go like that? What if we were to be a thing and he was to hurt me again? That pain would be so much worse. I don't know if I could ever recover from that.

What am I saying, what if? Since I did this we are going to be a thing. Am I ready for that? I've never been in a real relationship before, oh god I never had sex. He's going to want it, I mean all men do, but what if he doesn't want to wait? Well I mean if we don't last that long...what am I thinking it's not the time for that.

In the middle of my thinking I almost didn't realize I pulled away, my eyes fluttering open to see Cody's baby blue ones staring at me. His face reads of surprise, his eyebrows are raised and his eyes widened.

I bite my bottom lip, waiting for him to say something or for me to think of something to say.

He stutters to get words out, nothing but sounds and air coming out.

"Alice, I-I...I don't...understand I..."

"I don't understand either..."

I send him a small, my face turning a dark shade of red. He smiles back, his eyes lighting up with happy thoughts I suppose.

"So wait, what does this mean? Are we...?"

I shrug, looking down at our hands, a slight smile appearing on my lips, noticing that their interlocked.