Ours: A Stally Fanfiction

Why HER?

Niether stevie or ally would admit how they felt? They were scared? They thought about each other constantly? In the morning she was there? In the afternoon, she was there, in the evening, she was there? The most difficult thing was, in every dream, she was there, and it was wonderful? It wasn't just ally who romanticized about being in a relationship with stevie? Stevie also day dreamed about how it would be to be with ally?
Stevie would dream about ally all the time, even with her eyes wide open? Mostly while getting lost in Ally's bright green eyes? It was torture being so close to her but unable to say the things she wanted to? All she wanted to do was lay next to her, lay her head on her chest while holding her hand and listen to her heart beat? She imagined that moment alot? When she would talk to ally and see her smile, she would imagine pulling her close and kissing her grin?
You would think it would make it easier that only a few days ago, that Ally said she loved her? But stevie didn't know how to take that? For one, ally was on heavy medication and the doctor said it didn't mean anything? Also, ally never mentioned it afterwards, so she probably didn't even realize she had said it?

SPOV

IS; Why Her? Why am I so obsessed wih her? She is just another person? She's just another person? She's just another person? With a gorgeous smile, and the prettiest eyes I've ever been lost in? When she smiled at me, it felt like someone had turn up the bass on the radio to the max but I could feel it only in my chest? My toes curled, and I couldn't stop intertwining my fingers together? I've been able to control my emotions so well? Why am I struggling now? Why am I getting weaker now? Why HER?

APOV

IA; What did last night mean? Was it supposed to mean something? Is the fact that I'm asking the answer? Brain your useless? Why do you keep answering my questions with more questions? What is so Damn special about stevie? What about her is making me feel this way? I'm in love with her? Why does that thought feel like DejaVu? I am? I think....maybe.....? Why am I not questioning it? I'm usually so unsure? What's happening to me?

THIRD PART POV

Stevie and ally don't understand why they feel like this? They both can't stand being so close yet so, so, so far from where they truly want to be? Stevie feels weak, but in reality it is her true strength coming out? Ally can't argue that she defiantly feels something, but is scared to love stevie because she doesn't think stevie could love her back, because stevie is still in the closset, but ally doesn't know that stevie is even considering being with girls? They are turning themselves inside out trying to answer all of there questions? They both have proven that they would fight for one anoher? It hurt them both to see the other in pain? But they still don't see how the other one feels looking into each others eyes, because the risk of it being more feels like it would destroy them, but it feels like it's so wrong it's right? If only they would stare into the others souls and see themselves in one another?

SPOV

IS; I can barely stand this? She's right there? What's standing in my way? Why can I just....? Why is it so fucking hard? I should just be able to go up to her and.....? And.....?

Stevie could see it all I her head, but she couldn't allow herself to say it? Then it would be real? It would be out there? It will exist? She picked up a pen, and paper? She put the pen on the paper but her hands were shaking so bad, she kept almost dropping it? She threw the pen across the room?

IS; GOD DAMN IT. Why can to say it? It's a word? A simple word? A small word? Why the fuck is this so hard? I should just be able to write it? Say it? Spell it? Type it?

Stevie picked up the pen? She decided to start slow? She started with drawing a heart? She drew it delicately? She then wrote in it? "I", then she wrote another word? "Am" she started to write the first letter, and it turned out so shakey? Then the second? Her heart started to race? She took a deep breath as she wrote the last letter? She closed her eyes? She took a few deep breathes? She got under her covers and covered her head? She lifted the paper up to her face? Then she opened her eyes? Stevie started to cry? She held the paper to her chest, and forbade it to be seen again? She folded the paper so the words were hidden? She got out of bed and went to the kitchen? She turned on the stove burner and held the paper over it? She put the paper in the empty sink and watched it as it burned? She wanted to make sure that is was completely gone? After it was nothing but ashes she washed it down the sink? She scrubbed the sink till she was sure that no ash residue was left?
Stevie ran to the bathroom and splashed water on her face? We she looked up she was staring in the mirror? She looked at hersself, but she no longer recognized the person looking back at her? It was a different face? A new person? She couldn't even blink? The mirror said it all, as stevie mouthed the words that she couldn't say aloud?

S; (silently no actual speaking)I..... am...... (alound in a whisper)Gay?

Stevie covered her mouth afraid of what she had just said? Her muscles relaxed? And she could breath easier? She sat down on the floor? She held her knees up to her chest and just cried? She held her legs and and just kept mouthing the words over, and over, and over again?

S; I am gay? I, am gay? I am gay? I am gay?

Stevie could no longer deny or ignore it? To her surprise she was mad, or sad, or even disapointed? She was happy? She was relieved that her big monster of a skeleton, in her closset, was out and so was she? Well at least only to herself? All this time she feared what she felt? She hated herself, and was disgusted with how she dreamed about being with ally? But now she could breath? She could see past the excuses? It was so obvious and simple now?

APOV

A; What is going on with stevie?

Ally could here stevie pacing in the room over? Ally was curious as to why stevie was so restless, and anxious?

IA; Is she okay? I wish I could walk in there and ask?

A few minutes later ally heard stevie rushing out of her room crying? Ally wants to ask what's wrong, but she didn't want to but in if wasn't her buisness? A few minutes later she heard stevie in the bathroom and the sink running? Ally didn't think anyhing of it until the water stopped, and a faint sound caught ally off guard? A sound ally was all to families with? It was heavy breathing mixed with anxious shuttering which in Ally's experience meant she was trying to calm her breathing and stop crying? Then ally heard the one word that would change everything? "GAY"?

IA; What was that? Did I hear that right? Please say it again? I need reasurance? Could this be right? Is she....? Does this mean.. what I think this means?

Ally felt a smile forming on her face? Not just because she was proud of stevie, but because now she could validate her feeling towards stevie? She had hope now? Ally knew now what she wanted? She knew what her feelings meant now?

IA; That's it? I have to be her girlfriend? I need to be with her?

Ally wanted to tell stevie how she felt? But she didn't want to force stevie? She now knew that stevie was a lesbian, but stevie just admitted it to herself? It might take a while for her to feel comfortable letting others know? Ally had been there before? It's scary knowing this big secret and not being able to admit it anyone? She would have let stevie come to her? It wouldn't be fair to make stevie comeout, just so ally could tell her about her visions for them? It felt selfish?

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Authors note?

Wow this is an emotional roller-coaster? Stevie admitted it? She finally came to terms with who she is, and ally knows? Oh my god the feels are so real right now? Leave me a comment, and it would be much appreciated if you voted? Thank you so much? I enjoy writing this? My only regret is having to write ally injured?