Two Broken Pieces ; L.H

Chpt. 42 || Everything Hurts

• 7:21 pm, Monday - Alex

I swung the door open and saw Bryana pinned against the wall with her legs wrapped around Ashton's waist, while his hands were gripping her thighs. Different emotions flooded through me. I turned to Luke, tears threatening to spill, "You fucking knew, didn't you?"

I looked at Ashton and Bryana again who were looking at me with wide eyes.

"Fuck you Ashton! Fuck you!" I shouted, taking steps closer to him. "Was I not enough Ashton? I gave you fucking all of me, you were my first boyfriend, I- I- I fucking loved you." I whimpered. "Was I not good enough for you to go get at another girl Ashton? You fucking shit! This whole time you told me you had to go to work, making up excuses just to see her huh? Well how do you feel now you fucking dick!? Huh Ashton?" I shouted again.

"And Bryana, I thought you were my friend. I told you everything, and I trusted you. Make sure to clean the fucking knife you just stabbed me with, have fun with Ashton," I said walking away. "I hope you guys are finally happy with each other now that I'm not in the way."

Luke stood by the door along with the rest of them. "Clark, are you-"

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

"I-I wasn't sure myself. I had my suspicions and didn't want to say anything to you because I knew you were happy with him." Luke said.

"Yeah because I'm so fucking happy right now," I sarcastically replied. "I'm gonna go for a walk, please leave me alone. I'll be back later." They all nodded then I was on my way.
-
I was sitting on a log, not too far away from the cabin. Tears were dripping down from my eyes, my eyes stung, and it was extremely cold.

"Alex!" I heard someone call.

"Alexandria fucking Clark if you don't say anything back I-"

Alexandria. What he called me when he was dead serious, or mad.

"Right here Lucas." I weakly called.

I heard foot steps coming towards me then felt something wrapped around me. Luke wrapped a blanket around us. "How you feeling Clark?" He asked.

I shrugged. "Is he there?" I asked.

Luke shook his head, "Left with Bryana."

"I hope they get into an accident," I mumbled. "Just kidding, I know it isn't funny to joke about those kind of things." I said.

We sat there in silence. My head was resting on his shoulder, his arm around my body.

"Luke, why do I feel like shit? Why do I hate myself right now? Shouldn't I be hating Ashton, and what he did? I should be mad that he was hooking up with Bryana instead of being with me and making time, and love to her right?" I said, turning to face him.

"I mean, that is one way to go about this." He said.

"Then tell me why I fucking hate myself. Was I a bad girlfriend? Is this my fault? Because Luke I don't fucking get it," I cried. "I fucking hate that he left with Bryana, I hate that I'm good enough to him, h-how I wasn't enough to make him choose me. This is all my fault. I-"

"Alexandria Clark stop with all this bullshit!" Luke shot. "Don't you ever you weren't good enough, o-or this is all your fault. Ashton is a fucking dick for making you feel this way."

Luke looked straight into my eyes, his ocean blue eyes shining in the moonlight. "Alex, please don't ever say you weren't good enough okay? Because you were probably the best girlfriend he's ever had. Any guy would be lucky to have you as a girlfriend Clark. Ashton? He wasted his chance," Luke said. "So don't ever blame yourself for this okay?"

I nodded. Luke wiped my cheeks with his thumb then kissed my forehead, "Clark it's getting dark lets get back to the cabin."

"Okay." I agreed.
-
"Alex I swear to god next time I see him I'm gonna beat the hell out of him. Then you know what else I'm gonna do? Chop his penis off then make him choke on it, afterwards I'm gonna cook it then serve it to Bryana. Then-"

"Okay, Okay Michael." I laughed.

"He's a dumbass for hurting you Alex, he should be given the cruelest punishment ever." Calum said.

"What we should do is plan revenge." Serinity said.

I shook my head, "They'll get their karma. Karma's a bitch isn't it?"

All of a sudden, we heard a rustling sound and footsteps coming near us. We all looked at each other with widened eyes and nervous faces.

"Guys. What the fuck was that?" Michael asked.

"It was a damn kangaroo Michael. How the hell would we know?" Calum sarcastically replied.

"What the fuck Calum? A fucking kangaroo?." Serinity teased, laughing.

"Shut up babe, lets just ignore it and get inside. It's fucking cold anyway." Calum said.

We all settled back inside, and into our beds. I had a bed to myself, which then reminded me of the dick that left a few hours ago.

The thought of Ashton made my head hurt, the good times made my eyes water, the horrible times made me want to scream my head off. I was a mess.

Everyone was sound asleep, but I was still wide awake eyes sore from crying, cheeks wet from the tears. I sat up leaning my head against the headboard and took deep breaths, trying my best not to wake anyone up.

But then, I heard sheets sliding across a mattress and saw someone get out of bed. It was Calum, he sat on the edge of the bed.

"How you holding up Al?" He asked.

"Everything hurts." I told him. He scooted closer to me and wrapped his arms around me.

"I'm sorry you're feeling this way Alex. I wish you didn't have to go through this, but just know you aren't alone okay? You've got all of us to talk to." Calum said.

I nodded, "I know Cal, thanks."

"Now, you've got to get some sleep okay? Stop thinking about him because he doesn't deserve your tears. I'm not necessarily saying it's not okay to be sad, but just don't let this get to you too much. It's okay to be a little sad sometimes, but just know it's gonna get better," He said leaning down to kiss my forehead. "Night Alex sleep well kiddo."
x
{ Jaylyn } CALUM IS BEST FRIEND GOALS AM I RIGHT LADIES LITERALLY EVERYONE NEEDS A CALUM IN THEIR LIFE