Two Broken Pieces ; L.H

Chpt. 46 || Regrets

• 1:29 pm, Thursday - Ashton

Leaving Alexandria was the smartest thing to do. I regret it, but staying there just would've made it worse. I regret everything and I know there's no way she would forgive me.

I knew they were already back from the trip, but Bryana was keeping me from seeing her. Talking to her has been on my mind lately, but I don't know how Bryana feels about me talking to Alex about it. I think I love Bryana. My mom was always telling me that if the girl was the one for me I wouldn't look at anyone else. When I was with Alex, I was always leaving her for Bryana. Maybe Alex wasn't the one for me, but I knew for sure I didn't want to loose her.

A knock on my door interrupted my thoughts, "Ash there's someone at the door for you." My mom told me.

Oh crap. Alex? No Ashton, why the hell would she want to see you?

"Okay- uh, ju-just let them in!" I answered.

Moments later, Luke was standing in front of my bedroom door. "Luke?"

"Ashton we need to talk." He said.

I took in a nervous gulp. "Yeah, sure. About Alex I'm guessing?"

Luke nodded. "You hurt her bad. Like you fucked up big time Ashton. She's accepted that you want to be with Bryana but- fuck Ashton she's hurting. I can see that she is, no matter how big the smile on her face is, I can see it in her eyes that she isn't. You knew that I knew about Bryana but you kept  going at it. If you knew Alex wasn't the one you should've ended it the moment you realized it Ash. That's where you fucked up. Not the times you were with Bryana doing- God knows what, not the times you left Alex for Bryana, not the times you lied, and surely not when you left the cabin. You fucked up when you made the decision to keep dating Alex when you clearly wanted someone else." Luke huffed.

"Luke I know I messed everything up. I hate myself for doing it. I honestly thought you were going to tell her so I could get dumped because I deserved it, but what surprised me is that you didn't. It's not a secret that you have feelings for Alex Luke. It's pretty obvious, so I was surprised when she didn't come here ready to break up with me." I told him.

"Yeah, so what if I have feelings for Alex- fuck maybe I even love her but can I tell her? No, because I'm leaving okay? My mom asked me to leave with her for a while and I don't have the heart to leave her again. I'm here to make things right with you and make sure you won't do anything to Alex while I'm gone. Don't worry about her knowing about me leaving because I'm not leaving for another few months or so, there isn't an exact date right now but it's not happening anytime soon. Until then please try to make things right with her okay? But leave telling her about me leaving to me. I want to be the one to tell her." Luke said.

"I'm sorry your having problems with your family Luke. Growing up without my dad was pretty tough. And I understand why you want me to make up with Alex before you leave. You're a good kid Luke, not sure why everyone thought you were a dick before." I chuckled.

"I know, but Alex changed me. She doesn't know she did, but she's the reason why I changed," Luke admitted.  "I've got to go Ash. Nice talking to you again. Take care of yourself." Luke said getting up.

"You too Luke. I'll walk you out."
.....

I was currently waiting outside Target for Bryana's shift was over. I saw Alex walk into the store a few moments ago, I was hoping I didn't cause problems between their friendship, but I obviously did. I fucked everything up.

Bryana was walking towards the car, so I unlocked the door and kissed her cheek as she sat in the passenger seat.

"Bumped into Alex." Bryana said.

"Yeah? What happened?" I asked.

"She seems okay actually. She didn't bitch stare me, she didn't say anything. She even smiled at me and waved. I honestly thought she was going to do something bitchy but she didn't. I said hi back then I left the store," Bryana told me. "You should talk to her baby. I feel bad for taking you away from her. I shouldn't have, and you shouldn't have chose me. Alex is clearly better and-"

I smashed my lips against hers, "I chose you because I lo- Because you're the one for me and I promise I won't hurt you the way I did Alex. Don't compare yourself to her because I didn't think she was the one okay?" I said.

"Still babe, talk to her okay?" Bryana asked.

I nodded, "I will."