The Fake Smile Of A Man

The Love I Wished For

so what can I say About this one, she was amazingly beautiful, she cared a lot, she tried to make anything work. the things I loved her for was all so the things I hated her for.
but let start from the beginning before bull dog I messaged sam on MySpace said hi talked a little and then she stopped. so at this point I've left bull dog and I get a message from her and chat and decided to meet up I was so happy because she actually sounded like she wanted to be with me an liked me for who I am. that day we talked about meeting I weren't letting nothing get me down I even quit work with an energetic boost. I read her profile over and over again trying to see anything I could use out of it. the day comes the day after I quit my job we arrange to meet up at 10.30 next to a statue out side the cinema as I stand there trying to think where to take her, weres the beat place she would be impressed 30minutes went by so I message her she says she's late shell be there. so now I'm going over in my head what questions should I ask, what to talk to her about. an hour goes by at this point she still says she's coming but I'm slowly starting to lose hope what if she don't, how long would she let me wait here till she tells me, is this just a prank. 2 hours it takes she sneaks up close till I see her gleaming and smelling of Britney fantasy her favourite perfume at the time.
we get chatting straight away seeming so easy to just talk. I swear she was wearing a blue top and some jeans nothing special but she made them look good. even the trainers on her feet did.
we finally sat down in a nice little pub (the old customs house) grabbed a couple of drinks and just talked getting closer and closer she told me about her dogey knee to get me to put my hand on her leg and I told her about my arm able to dislocate it at will so she would put her hand on my shoulder. at this point I remembered I had that orange lollie in my pocket, while going through her profile I realised that she says she liked orange lollies so I hunted a few down and gave them to her. we were just starting to get Hungary so unfortunately seeing I just lost my job an that had to find somewhere a bit cheaper but still wanted to take her some were nice so suggested the farm house a cheap family pub not to far from her house and not to scruffy. we both jump in my car not knowing were this day will take us chatting away we walk in and sit down as ya do I went up ordered and payed for our meals come back and she tells me the ppl sitting next to her hate us. well at this point I wondered why she said it then she told me the bloke over there worked in the chip shop and while he was him and her both had with each other and he was married to her with kids at the same point.
now I do believe if ya get married that's one thing but if you have planned kids ya should. mean it. well meaningless to say they eat quick lol. we chat eat are dinner and shes already offering me round to hers now at this point it became the best day of my life a beautiful women smell amazing and looked just as good have dinner, chat, we even kissed it had happened a girl likes me for me not just what I could do for her pay for stuff taxi her around just at this point she made me feel wanted. trying to down play this so I don't look like a crazed Looney I accepted and drove us back to her place.
her place weren't all that it was messy a bit dirty but it was the place she called home warm cozy, well she took me up stairs near on straight away in to her bedroom, purple walls, a double bed and everything smelt good as could be. she pushed me on the bed I was nerves at this point as not been with many women an she seemed like she was gagging for me. she starts striping I ask if she's got any protection and she says I don't need it, now she only striped of her lower half she didn't like showing her whole body to no one, an then striped me, she didn't mind run her hands up pulling up my shirt mind u. all I could think is I'm going to cum to soon so I have to last as long as I can. yer she felt amazing more so but wanted to give her joy as well. we snuggled and kissed for hours in the end, then she phoned up her best mate and bragged to her and she came round just to nose really but it soon came round to the time i had to leave and go home, with all this new comfort in my life I really didn't wanna leave she didn't want me to go either she told me I had to leave some thing with her, I ended up leaving her my new coat all in all it would not of mattered I would have been there every minute of every day if I could and after that night I basically was. that night she asked if I could stay tomorrow to her dad he said yes but downstairs which I can completely understand stand he didn't know me and she only knew me from MySpace she messaged me and I excepted feeling like this would be the last night I'm alone feeling happy and nerves all at the same time. needless to say I didn't get much sleep that night just things running though my head thinking how did I and how came I impress her. the next day comes meet her at 1 this time at her home we spend the whole evening together chatting and talking what we want in the future to joking about marriage I decide to jokingly propose at this point and she took it o so serious at this point I didn't feel like it but it was the best ever thing that could happen to me. I try and dul it down and tell her how much I did and do care for her but its only been 2 days and she agrees. at this point her dad tells her its time for bed just because he didn't want us sleeping together specially so soon. she goes up and sneaks back down lol. yes we fool around so in love with each other how could we hold our self back.
every night for the next 6 month we slept in the same bed snuggling at night it felt so warm and right.