The Fake Smile Of A Man

my marriage

now this love story is getting really repetitive, same excuse every time, same reason why i stay, I stayed because I loved her thos of you who know love, know they can piss you off, not be there when you need them, you can run away but you'll still come crawling back.
so as I said and told myself im not excepting second best, I want to be number 1, i want for them to see me how I see them in my eyes.
so here goes, we start preparing for are wedding we got the open air museum for the wedding it was like the most romantic and most loveliest place for any one to have there wedding there and for reception was a caravan park pub they said they were having a refit and in the year it would be ready so we were happy with that and by the sea not far from home and a lovely place.
We were mocked around again and again with the caravan park, eventually they said they could not do it for that price. Me and Sam got so pissed off with them we started looking for another place and found a lovely hotel, the inn logde, free hunnymoon suite to, all sounds good.
So all set 27 of July 2013 the day I get married say my vow and mean it, well ment it at the time. Get about a month before the time and she tells me the reason she went on the injection because her periods where painful and not timing right like it was a little thing to me, the 7 years I've been with her, she knowing that I wants kids a family and she tells me then like its nothing not in a gentle way and tell me she hopes we can have kids but she has had problems 7 years together and a month before our wedding.
I eventually carm down and accept it knowing I really loved her and all the things I did wrong, I couldn't go mental about that. we got married amazing day, everything felt perfect end of the night we went up to the hunnymoon suite big jucuzy in it. I filled it up and made love and snuggled just talking the night away.
The morning after we came down and saw some of her family who stayed the night there just said hi, not for long mind u, this day was our day no one else's it time for the honeymoon.
So of we go jumped in the taxi to the airport chatting and kissing all the way. We get to the airport check in, at this point I'm a bit nervous because its the first time on a plane but at least I was going with the right person, caring, loving and we cared for each other would of been the perfect way to go if I had to. But we got there and life only got better warm lovely landzorote, part of the cannery islands, i so wanna go back even now. We did every tour we could there in the two weeks we had and the hotel was all inclusive so cocktails and shot, beers and food anytime plus adult only hotel lol I didn't think much of an adult hotels at the time because I love kids and want a family of my own but now I got kids I see the bonus of it.
So all in all the honeymoon was perfect but through the whole thing thinking she deserved better I still had things hadn't told her but she didn't need to be hurt no more just wanted to make it up to her for the rest of our lives.