Someone, Somewhere

Opening up

"Fucking piece of shit lighter" muttered Ben whilst throwing his lighter away. "Want mine?" I say in reply after sparking up and taking a long drag from my fag. I held my custom Peter Pan zippo out to him (I like Peter Pan okay? Sew me) and he took it from me and replied "thanks Tink".

My whole face just dropped and I felt my eyes welling up, I saw the other four guys standing and staring at me all taking drags or exhaling smoke from their fags. Ben looked down at me and his face dropped too, he threw his whole fag to the floor and threw mine away too before pulling me into a strong embrace.

"I'm so sorry Jay, I completely forgot. Sorry" he said in a soothing voice whilst stroking the back of my head. I let the tears come from my eyes and seep into his shirt. "She okay?" I near James ask, I feel Ben shake his head.

I pulled away and looked up at him, he wiped the tears from my eyes and face and kissed my forehead. "Come here" I hear Sam say, I turned to see him with arms spread out inviting me into a hug.

I took his invitation and I was quickly enveloped in a tight embrace, with my face against his muscular chest. I couldn't help but start crying again, letting him rub my back and whisper soothing things into my ear.

I could feel Bens glare on the two of us and the other three tense up and glare at us also. I pulled away and mouthed "thank you" at him, before I took my spot next to Ben.

"So what's the deal then?" Asked Cam, I looked at him confused whilst wiping the ruminants of my tears off of my cheeks. "The deal with what?" I asked in reply, still confused with what he was getting at.

"What's the story behind the tears? And being called Tink?" He added giving me a sorry look at mentioning the word 'Tink'.

"Basically, I was in a band. We were called Neverland and we all had weird pet names, mine was Tink because I was smaller than all the guys and my boyfriend was the lead singer, his name was Peter. We had this argument about something, I don't even remember what it was about, but it basically ended with me ending it. He didn't take it very well and he beat me up, among other things. He put me in the hospital and and he took off the next day, basically dropping off the face of the earth" I say, feeling the lump in my throat swell at the thought of him.

"Oh" James said looking shocked and sorry, the other guys all were wearing the same expression. "By he did other stuff to you, do you mean?" Danny asked looking over at me raising an eyebrow. "Yeah, he er..." I tried to finish but i couldn't as my voice broke and tears started streaming down my face once again.

"Shit, please tell me you kicked the living fucks out of him?" Cam said angrily aiming his question at Ben. "Did I ever, the bastard left because he was shit scared of me getting to him again" Ben replied pulling me back into a strong hug.

"He left without his younger brother, because he is older than us by about two years. So he just took off and didn't tell anyone" Ben added, I pulled myself away and composed myself before turning to face the others.

"His brother found out what he had done and basically said I must've provoked him or something because he wasn't that sort of person. The other two guys in the band didn't take sides with either of us, they moved away about two months after Peter did. Peters brother moved away to live with him about six months after the other two had left. Wasn't exactly the best year I had" I say putting a brave face on and steadying my voice.

"Is this why he's so protective over you then? And why you both act up?" Sam asked, "yeah pretty much and no, we act up because we can and we enjoy pissing teachers off" I reply with a smile.

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The overly loud bell rang once again telling us to go to our next lesson. "What've you got?" James asked approaching the two of us. "Double chemistry" Ben said looking down at me smiling. "We all have as well" James replied standing next to me.

Ben walked off with the other three guys leaving me and James alone. He held out his arm and I linked mine with it. We walked slowly towards the school doors and I let my hand run down his arm until it met his hand, where I entwined my fingers with his. I looked up to see him smiling down at me, I couldn't help but smile back.

I know I had only known him for a few hours, but I felt like I had known him forever. This moment felt so right, I even had butterflies and I was pretty sure I was grinning like a Cheshire Cat.

Was I falling for James?