Nobody Has To Know

Chapter Thirty Four

*Chay POV*

Lately I been getting light headed and these horrible stomach cramps. I haven’t told Chris because he has been so excited about this tour, and the today is the day his leaving. Well all of them are leaving. Kizzy and Carmen have all ready called me crying talking about how much they all ready missed their babies. Chris been to hold out as much time before he leaves me, like a taking a long time packing, cleaning the house, cooking, everything he can get his hands on before he left for the tour.

“Babe the boys keep texting me telling me to let you go and shit but I’m not the one holding you back” I said sitting on the bed watching Chris dust the dresser. He smirked and looked back at me.

“I don’t want to leave you just yet” he said crawling up on the bed and up to me.

“Well you are going to have to go sooner or later” I said as he put me on my back.

“I know but I’m going to miss my lil Chay-Chay” he said in his hoodrat voice

“You stupid for that” I said giggling underneath him.

“But I know you going miss Daddy Breeze Dick the most” he said kissing on my neck.

“I might or might not? Who knows?” and when I said that Chris jumped up so quick.

“You better not give my pussy to nobody else Chay. I fucking mean that because I will come back and kill you and the motherfucker.”

“You ain’t going to do shit. You ain’t bout that life Chris” I said pushing him back on top of me. He had his lips poked out “Babe I was just playing with you, damn! You know I’m going to miss him as much as I’m going to miss you in general. But after what we did last night all the way up till this afternoon should hold me down..a least for a lil while” I said and saw smirk a little bit. That all you got to do, is build of Chris confidence talk about shit like this for him to feel better.

“I love you Chay-Chay” he said “If I could, I would take you with me on this tour but Trey made that fucking rule not bring the wifey’s because thats going to be distraction. Fuck that I need my daily dosage of you. What am I going to do?” he said as his forehead was on mine.

“Shit if I know” I said putting arms around his neck and he leaned down to give me a kiss for only his phone to vibrate. He shook his head and reached in his pocket to answer it. I could hear the boys cussing his ass out and telling him to hurry the fuck on. I laughed and Chris said “Man fuck all y’all! I’ll get there when I get there” then hung up the phone. “Baby I ain’t got much longer till they come to house and drag me out.” he said getting off me and sitting on the side of the bed.

“Then come on” I said jumping off the bed and went to the door. He grabbed his shoes and came behind me. When we got outside he was sitting on the top of his car and his pull my belt loops of my shorts to pull me between his legs.

“I don’t wanna leave” he started whining.

“Then stay” I said putting my head on his shoulder.

“I wish I could but you know I can’t”

“Then go” I said making Chris laugh.

“What the fuck you want to me to do”

“Whatever makes you happy” I said looking into his eyes.

“Don’t ever change” he said smirking up at me.

“I won’t, trust” I said taking his hands off me and started walking backwards “You better get going.” He just nodded his head and got into his Lambo. He put he seatbelt on and turned to face me. He blew me kiss and mouthed I love you, the next thing you knew I was standing there alone looking down the road. I hope these months go by fast because I don’t know how long I can last without see Chris everyday.

*Carmen POV*

Everyone been badgering me every since that night at the club. The thing is when I want to tell y’all something I will tell you. Me and Trey got in a fight before he left because I didn’t tell him what was wrong with me. He even took off his ring. I know your like what ring? Me and Trey have been secretly engaged for a couple of weeks now, almost a month. We didn’t want to tell nobody just because of the tour, Hazel and Mijo drama, and all this other bullshit thats been going in our lives. So we made a decision to tell them when everything settles down.

I’ve called Chay crying talking how much I all ready miss Trey but I think that wasn’t the only reason why I was crying. It’s getting closer and closer to that day when my world got turned upside down. I don’t like to talk about it much because I don’t like when people start to have pity on me and plus some other shit that I have to keep a secret. I almost done with my bottle of Hennessy when there was a knock on the door. I thought about just acting like I wasn’t home but then I heard Chay voice.

“Carmen I know your ass is in there! Your fucking car is in the driveway!” she said pounding even harder. I winced at the constant throbbing that was occurring because of her knocking. I hurried up and ran to the door to stop the noise.

“Can you calm your shit all the way dowwwwn please?” I said slurring on almost every word.

“Carmen are you drinking at 12 o’clock in the afternoon?” she said walking in. Nobody told her nagging ass to come into my house, I just shook my head and closed the door behind her.

“It’s never too early to get your sip on..Anyways why are you here?” I said going back to the couch and my bottle.

“I thought you might want to hang out you know get your mind off Trey. But it seems like you all ready started” she said grabbing my bottle.

“Hey! You can’t do that shit! That’s my bottle! You get your own missy! Hennessy is all I have right now” I said trying to get it back but she kept moving it. It was like every time I tried to catch it but it was like my hands weren’t going fast enough. Finally I just stopped and looked at her “You happy now?”

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” said Chay sitting on the other couch facing me.

“Ain’t shit wrong with me. Is there something wrong with you?” I said pointing at her and busted out laughing.

“Why are you drinking like-like”

“Like what?”

“Like you don’t care about your life!”

“Right now I don’t give a fuck about nothing” I said crossing my arm and closed my eyes. All of a sudden it got real quiet and that unlike Chay, she always talking about something. Then I realized I had left Trey’s ring on the table and I hurried and opened my eyes. Just like I thought Chay had picked up Trey’s ring and was staring at it.

“What is this?”

“What do you think it is?” I said grabbing the ring from out her hand and put on the dresser beside my couch.

“Trey and you are married?”

“No! Engaged.”

“So is that why your drinking because of Trey called off the engagement and-”

“Chay stop jumping to fucking conclusion! That’s not it either because I really don’t care about Trey and what he is doing, or just him in general” I said but deep down inside I knew I was lying. I was torn up about Trey taking off his ring but that wasn’t the main contributor to why I’m drinking.

“Then why? Maybe we can get you some help”

“I’m not a alcoholic Chay”

“What the fuck are you talking about?”

“You talking about help and shit. I don’t need no fucking help, I been dealing with my problems, my way this long, just give me some time Chay”

“Time for what?”

“To grieve” I said and I saw she had put the bottle back on the table, so I grabbed that and walked upstairs. Chay knows my secret but right now I don’t think she realizes what time it is. She probably forgot just like everyone else but I will never forget.