Adam Cianciarulo and Amber

the girl can race

  in the end the winner of the race between ryan and i the winner is .... me. ryan seems very upset at this but he says i did good then here him walk off and make a comment about me being a girl and beating him and theni hear him say that he should not have made me race on the team because i might be better then him. next up is chad and adam and adam loses by 2 seconds or something like that. when nick goes up aguenst chad nick loses. this means i have to up aguesnt chad, i hope i can beat him but beating ryan is a lot he is one of the best racers in the country with the numbers 1 Aand 2 as his numbers. i line up next to chad. i hear him say something like good luck and then he says youll need it. i feel like when we race the boys even ryan and chad who are like my dads think less of me because i am a girl. i feel like i have to prove it more now but if i can beat ryan i can beat chad but chad is older and has more experiance. we line up at the purple gates. when we start chad is in frount of me but i wind up winning by less then a second literally. i think they said 0.378 seconds i won by or something like that. i take off my halmet and walk over to chad. he says something under hs breath that sounds like i can not beleive i lost to a girl. he seems really upset and i mean ryan and chad are being sexist. i dont like people like that. they are lucky they are on my team or we would have had problems and i mean i didnt race aguenst adam and nick but i hope they will not be like this if i ever beat them because i dont care what adam is to me i would slap him i just cant slap ryan because he is my dad and i can not slap chad because he is like my second dad and yes i am the only minor on the team and adam is an adult and i was always taught not to hit anyone especially an adult. but i will make an acception with adam and nick because well they are like closer to me and it would really hurt it would hurt most if adam did it. i walk away from chad and go to change. i diside to stay in my room and play on my new iphone 6s. i have had an iphone is the past but this is the newist iphone and i dont know what the features are. i sit in my room for about an hour with the door locked before i go out to get some food because it is past 12 and i didnt have anything to eat since yesturday morning and so yeah. i walk out and see all the boys are in a little circle and seem like they are fighting. i hear my name but ignore it because ryan and chad are prob mad that they got beat and are just venting and i mean i am a girl and there have been no girl racers before so i can see why the first time i race on the team i beat them. i feel even worse because i ahvent even been raqcing for a year and i dont want to sound cocky but i guess im just good at it. adam looks over at me and i look back at him. i give a little smile and wave but he just shakes his head and turns back to the group. i wonder what that was all about. i look at the food and there is like no junk food just fruits and shit. i sigh and guess i will just go longer without food because i mean people can go for 27 or 28 or something like that days with out food so why can i not do the same? i walk back over to my trailer and go to my room and then remember i have stories that i was writting on that one app, i think it is called wattpad. i look up the app after i conect to the wifi. i look up and see adam standing in his room. i dont want to bother him so i jus get up and close the door. i walk back over to my bed and lay down on it. i think about what happened last night and what happened. i think about it for a while to. i think about how i had known of adam but only met him yesturday. i think about the age difference of four and a half years or close to four and a half years. i think about what ryan would do if he ever found out. i think about what i would do if it was my daughter. i think about all that has happened in my life that ryan doesnt know about. i think about how no one really knows about my past but the [arents that raised me. i think about how i never got to met my birthmom. i start to get off track and think about other things. i get back on track and start to think about what ryan would do again. what would he do? would he have adam arrested as a sex offender? would he not care? of course he would care! would he be mad at me or adam .... or both of us? would he send me back to the parents that raised me? would he have adam or me or both of us kicked off the team. i do not know what the team rules are but ryan prob does and i am guessing its in there somewhere. i snap out of it and see someone standing at the door. it is ....