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☆sunday☆

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Almost a year ago, I met Tom online because we both liked the same stuff

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I knew him under his internet alias      @ kawaiibaby

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I fangirled over him so much because he had such an aesthetic k-pop fan acc with over 10k followers

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We somehow became internet best friends and that's when I realised I kind of had feelings for him

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It's completely strange and amazing falling in love with someone on the Internet

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Without knowing what they look like

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Falling in love with their personality

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With the little things that they do

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The things that they say

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The jokes they make

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Suddenly, after talking for 3 months

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He asked me out

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It was amazing

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He was so attractive and funny and nice and sweet

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His texts always put a smile on my face

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More and more selfies and skype calls were exchanged between us

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He told me he lived in America, in South Dakota

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I knew I wanted to see him

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I needed to see him

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So he took a plane and I told him my address

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He was even more gorgeous in real life

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He had dyed his hair pastel purple just for me

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For the week he stayed, I felt happy

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I felt loved

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I had never really felt that way before

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In one of our chats at 1am, he confessed that he had never actually told his dad that he was gay

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I encouraged him to do so and when he went back, he told his dad everything

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That was such a mistake

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He told me horrible stories about his dad beating him and yelling at him

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His dad called him horrible words like faggot and cunt

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Then, he disappeared for exactly 7 days and 13 hours

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When he came back, he was different

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He had hit the bottle

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Hard

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He acted different to me

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He was never as loving as he had been

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I shrugged it off

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I thought we would get over it

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Because he loved me and I loved him

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That's what I thought

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A couple weeks later, when I was feeling really depressed, you texted me

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When I think about it again, you saved me, Dan

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I realised that it wasn't normal to be sent the stuff that he was sending me

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So I cut it off

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Told him I couldn't deal with it anymore

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Then you told me to block him, so I did

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Now I have to talk about the other night, don't I?

read by dan🌙 at 12:32