Jacob Sartorius/ my first love

Chapter 23/jacob's pov

Julia was laying in my arms, she was cuddled up next to me. My head was full of thoughts:

How beautiful can a person be ? How beautiful can a person look without makeup and only a big t-shirt . How was it possible that I fell in love so fast. Like, I feel crazy, I can't tell it anyone because they must all think I'm totally crazy and weird... But it's true. I love her. Or I love the parts I know about her...

Did she already fell asleep ? No, I wanted to kiss her again. But when she's asleep I can only kiss her forehead. I can't leave again without saying something. And I won't see her tomorrow in school, she'll stay at home... What should I do ?

I got slightly up from her bed and cover her whole body with the blanket. I searched for a little pice of paper and grabbed a pencil. I wrote :" I hope you had a good night. I wish you didn't fell asleep. I wanted to say good bye this time. But I didn't want you to wake up. So here I'm writing this .Get well soon xoxo I love you , Jacob"

I placed the letter onto her doorknob, so she will hopefully see it when she gets up. I already opened the door and walked out but I changed my mind and got back to her bed again and kissed her again. It was really hard for me to leave right now. It seemed like her lips didn't want me to go. But I had to. So I slightly stepped down stairs said good bye to Julia's mom and went outside. My mom was already waiting outside. I already missed Julia, but I tried to forget about my feelings ...