Hunter Hayes Imagines

#45: What Hurts The Most

A surprise imagine for trinaann! (Have tissues ready everyone.) Enjoy! :)

Katrina's POV:

"This can't be happening!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, "this isn't real, he isn't gone!" I cried out.

I sank to my knees on the bathroom floor and cried harder than I ever have in my twenty two years of life.

My mom sank to her knees behind me and rubbed my back, "It's ok, honey --"

"Don't touch me!" I yelled, running away from her and my father.

"You two never liked him! You wanted him to be out of my life!" I screamed.

"That's not true --"

I cut them both off, "Stop. You're lying and you both know it!"

I ran and slammed my bedroom door, collapsing onto the floor, crying loudly, silently cursing the turn my life has just made.

My boyfriend of one year, Hunter, got in a fatal car accident late last night. Never did I think that last night I'd speaking the last words to him that we'd ever exchange.

And there won't be a day that goes by that I won't regret the way we left things before he drove away last the night.

The question he asked will be one that haunts me forever.

He leaned against his car, his piercing blue eyes stared into mine, his hand falling against my cheek, "Do you love me, Katrina?"

Love. Such a scary word to me. One that I said to only a few people. I was never a girl who let my guard down easily. I feared what might happen as a result of falling in love. I feared getting hurt in the end. And having something so special end in such heartache.

I did love Hunter, but I was too afraid to speak the words to him aloud. My fears were crazy. I knew that. But the anxious side of myself couldn't bare to be left standing one day with a broken heart.

I wish now that I would've spoken those three beautiful words. I wish I could've expressed my feelings to Hunter before it was to late.

But I didn't. And now, I'd never be able to. He is gone. And I have clue how I'll go on without him in my life. But somehow, I had to force myself to go on with life. It was what Hunter would've wanted.

Even if right now, in this heart wrenching moment, I felt completely devastated.

[Flashback - one day earlier]

I shrieked as Hunter threw me over his shoulder playfully and ran through the tall green grass.

"Hunter! Put me down!" I laughed.

"Then say you love me!" He giggled softly and put me down gently in front of him.

I looked down at my grass stained bare feet before looking back up at him.

I knew in my heart that the words wanted to flow from my mouth, but my head just wouldn't let them.

"I really, really, like you." I kissed softly, "more than you could ever realize."

He sighed softly but kissed me anyway, smiling a bit, "I know." He stroked my long black curls.

I nodded. "Can we go swimming?" I pointed to the pond in the distance.

He smirked, "Come and get me!" He ran towards the mucky waters.

I squealed and ran towards him, chasing him and crashing my lips against his as we splished and splashed within the lukewarm pond water.

[End of Flashback]

"Damn it!" I cried out.

There were so many times that day when I had the opportunity to express the love I felt for him. But my head chose not to. The feeling of regret I have is undeniable. Like all my friends told me months prior, I should've listened to my heart. And what it wanted. Instead of getting caught up in the anxieties that stirred around in my head.

I ran and grabbed my jacket, throwing it over my shoulders as more tears fell off of my cheeks and onto the hardwood floor.

I snatched up my keys and gripped my favorite photograph, a Polaroid, of Hunter and I in my left hand.

[Flashback --one day earlier-- (Continued)]

I shivered as I ran out of the small pond and back into the soft and talk grass.

"I'm so cold!" I giggled as I looked to see Hunter running close behind me, shivering just as much.

He wrapped a towel around my body, sitting down in the warmth of the grass and pulling me into his arms.

"Better?" He asked.

"So much better." I smiled.

"I got you a present." Hunter smirked.

It wasn't even my birthday and Hunter had a surprise for me. It only showed a glimpse of how amazing he truly was. Always finding ways to keep my smiling. Even though I always smiled as long he was around.

"Baby! What did you get?" I asked, turning to face him.

I watched as he reached behind him, curious as to what he was grabbing.

"A Polaroid camera, like the one you've been wanting forever." He smiled.

"Hunter! You didn't have to do this! Thank you." I kissed him.

He kissed me passionately, "I'd always do anything for you."

"You're so sweet." I stroked his hair and looked into his blue eyes.

The three words I wanted to say were so close to coming out, but didn't. My head once again not collaborating with the wants of my heart.

"Let's take a picture!" I smiled gently.

"Yeah, ok." He grinned.

He grabbed the camera and flipped it around in the direction of a selfie style photograph.

"Ready?" He asked.

I nodded and smiled, wrapping my arms around his neck and staring into the lens.

He kissed my cheek before snapping the photo.

We both giggled as we watched the picture load and come out of the camera, the result, a small and glossy Polaroid, packed with so many memories in just one captured moment.

[End of Flashback]

I pulled my car up to where the accident had taken place only a night prior.

On the side of the road was the small wooden cross, engraved with his name. Beside it were flowers and other small tokens from people that had visited earlier.

"I am so sorry." I cried out, praying to God that Hunter could hear me somehow.

I will always regret not speaking a simple 'I love you' to him. I was so close to saying it to him. But I was to fearful. I let him say goodnight and watched him leave. Never stopping him to admit my true feelings for him.

I heard his voice in my head again, with the question he had asked me the night before.

"Do you love me, Katrina."

And now, even if it was to late, even if he could no longer stand in front of me and witness my response, I prayed that he could hear me as I finally speak the truth. The truth that I should've told him so long ago.

"I love you, Hunter."

A/N: Woah! I almost made myself cry with this one. Bahahaha! I hope you all love it as much as I do! Please, please, leave feedback in the comments and let me know what you thought! :) XoXo .. Kay