What's Done In The Dark Book 2

Chapter 8

(Janiya's POV)

* 7 weeks later*

K Michelle was speaking to my heart right now... How did I get here? I'm here being a fool, hurting the man that I promised I was gonna get back on the right track with.

Over the past three years my relationship with Cyro has seen a lot of unhappy days.. And the majority of it is my fault. After the death of our daughter, I did shut down but with the help of him, my best friend and my family I managed to bounce back.

Up until that whole mess that happened with Raven Jason I thought that my life was getting better.

Rae and August blessed me with a opportunity that I fell in love with and that's when the problems started occurring in my relationship with Cyro.

But we still managed to work through the problems I caused and went ahead and got married. It was going okay again up until this past tour.

I went for the first 2 months, until I found out I was pregnant then I came back home, but before I left I did some foul shit. that's gone effect a lot of people if it were to ever come out.

Truth is, I fell in love with August... I don't know how or why but I did... When Raven left and moved to Jamaica all I had was August and Cyro,mostly August because we spent the most time together because of the job I did for him.

One night we all got high and drunk in August's room after a show, Cyro passed out and that left me and August up still smoking,drinking and talking.

I don't know what came over me but I started confessing to August that I was in love with him and tried to convince him to forget about Raven and I would forget about Cyro and we could be together.

Well after I did all of that August put me in check and left his room and didn't come back. The next day he had a show and while I was dressing him we talked, I apologized and blamed it on the Alcohol. We eventually agreed to move past it and forget it ever even happened.

What we didn't know was that Cyro was in the next room and heard everything... We talked I explained and apologized. He swore he forgave me,but it was then that our relationship went down hill. We forced ourselves to stay together got married and had another baby.

Then this tour came around and Cyro and I were just going through the motions,we wasn't in love but we didn't wanna leave each other... I knew he was hurt still but its like when it came to August, Cyro didn't matter to me.

Raven was back by now of course they were married and she was pregnant already and its like I didn't care, I didn't understand the person I was becoming.

Once again I went at August inappropriately. One night after a show I went to his room and got undressed then got into his bed, when he finally came to his room he was beyond pissed at me.

He wouldn't let me leave the room or let me get dressed. He called Cyro down to his room and once he got there and August told him what I did it was like he had no more emotion to give. He just left. I found out I was pregnant three days later and decided to come home.

So that's why I can't really trip that he cheated and got another girl pregnant I pushed him in to doing it.

That's why I'm here in a fuckin hotel room , crying my eyes out to K Michelle.

I love my husband but I fell out of love with him. I'm not ready to give up, I really do wanna fix it. I just don't know how to start.

It would have only made matters worse had I gone to see my best friend. The feelings I have for her husband, she'll never forgive me for what I've done if she knew the truth.