Stop looking at him
sToP looKiNg aT hIm
STOP LOOKING AT HIM
I stopped looking at him
damn it
Why don't I say hi? He could be bi... maybe... ugh. I don't even know his name. I just know he takes piano lessons and sings when he walks home because he doesn't think anyone is listening. Why do I feel like this, I've never felt like this? Love is so easy! Well it always was for me. Love shouldn't make you so... nervous... right? God I wish I could strangle these butterflies in my stomach.
"Maybe your just actually in love, why don't you try a real relationship again?"
My best (and only) friend Ashley suggested. We were what some might call "popular". Doesn't that mean you have a lot of friends? I guess you could say I have a lot of friends, Ashley's the only real one though.
"Hell no, i've been down that road before, it never works out."
I don't believe in "true love", it's all a big hoax so kids think there's someone out there that's absolutely perfect for them. When in reality, you'll just get your heart broken a thousand times, I've learned to just stay away from relationships, it's not for me.
"Maybe you just haven't found the one yet? What if he's perfect for you?"
"Ash, there's no such thing as 'the one', plus he looks straight."
"Only one way to find out."
I looked at her like she was crazy.
"I'm not hitting on a straight guy. I'm sure he'd prefer that girl he's sitting with."
"What if he doesn't."
"What if he does.
"But what if he doesn't."
"He's not-"
The bell rung and everyone scurried to their classes.
"Meet me in the library at clinic."
"Why?"
"I need to pick up a book for this dumb-ass project in English."
"Kay."
We usually hang in the gym during clinic, but I'll live.
I kept thinking about what Ashley said throughout the next three periods, maybe I am falling for him, fuck this isn't good, I'm not going through this shit again. You know what, no, I'm not falling for him, I can handle this, I'll just use him, and forget about him. Yeah, forget about him.
I finally got to the library during clinic and saw Ashley holding a stack of books and setting them on one of the many round tables. I came up to her and we started talking, I took me a little to notice, but I looked to my left and...
Why is he here?
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It's Complicated
RandomJosh was done with love, he had his fair share of broken hearts. He was done with being broken. The belief that there is someone out there that is perfect for you, he thought, is absolutely ridiculous. So he's simply resorted to "dating" boys bec...
